For You

Beautiful Things

Show me beautiful things,
beautiful pictures,
beautiful flowers,
beautiful sunsets.
Show me beautiful things.

To block out the static in my brain,
I just want to feel something.

I miss the euphoria from being high,
so I'll take what I can get.

I don't want to die,
but something is better than this.

My friends didn't survive
the impact
of my mind
as it shattered.

Discarded, dismayed.
I cried to the heavens when I prayed,
hoping to gain some sense of self.

Please show me beautiful things,
so I can daydream,
pretend I'm someone else for a day.

Please, anyone,
show me beautiful things
so I can feel whole again.

I just want to know that someone
feels the same, but
I can't stand the idea
that someone has hurt
as much as I have.

So, I guess things will remain the same.
I'll look at pictures of your wedding day,
and hope it was wonderful for you.

I'll look at pictures on your social media,
and see how you smile with your eyes.

And I'll hope it was wonderful for you,
because I don't think anyone notices
that I don't smile with my eyes.

Show me your beautiful things, so
I can live vicariously through you.

All I want is to be remembered,
so please,
don't
forget
me.