UnderL.O.V.E

Not happening

The device. I didn't work. It should have worked, what went wrong. I did everything right, this wasn't supposed to happen. I just want to scream? Cry? I don't even know. I just want to be free, to get out of here. I can't take this anymore. It so quite, so lonely.

I'm so alone.

This is not happening, right? I was so close. I just want to leave, please let me leave. Why won't it work, what happened. I don't know, I can't find the problem. I need a break, yeah yeah, I break sounds nice.

I get up from my desk and walk outside. I walk all the way to Snowdin and just lay in the snow. I don't move. I lay in my back, letting the snow and dust fall onto me.

I'm so tired but I can't sleep. Why can't I sleep? I'm not scared of sleep, am I? What am I scared of. I've been scared all of my life but I always had a reason to be scared, but now theres no reason. So why am I scared, what am I scared of?

I can't figure it out. Everything is so confusing. I can't think straight, but that's probably due to the lack of sleep. I've been laying in the snow for a while now, eyes closed, not moving. Yet I can't sleep.

Maybe I'll do something else, but what? I don't want to walk around again, I don't want to work on the device. Maybe I could train? Yeah, yeah. That's a good idea, I'll get stronger again. But can I really get any stronger? I have all the LV I can get at this point, I've trained a whole bunch and I don't seem to be getting stronger.

I know, I need a hobby. That's something people normally have right? Yeah, yeah, I can do that. A hobby. What do I want to do? That's a good question. I could read, that's seems interesting. I'll go find some books now, there's got to be books down here.

I get up and start looking around for a book to read. I enter random houses and look for books. It's not like anyone would care or stop me from going in. It took a while but I found one, a book. The cover it completely destroyed so I don't know what the title is but the books looks to be alright otherwise.

I walk back to my house and sit outside of it. I can't go in there anymore. I refuse to go inside. Too much pain. Everywhere I go I'm reminded of pain. No no, nows not the time for that. I have a book so I'll read it.

The book it pretty good so far, I'm a few chapters in and it's quite enjoyable. Why didn't I think of reading before. This is actually really fun. I get to escape my world and live in someone else's for a bit. It's nice to forget about everything. To just see where someone else's story goes.

I bet it'll have a happy ending. I've heard a lot of books have those. It's not very realistic though, people don't always get a happy ending. But the book is nice. Really nice. I should do this again some time but for now I need to get back to work. Get back to the lab. Once I finish the device I can leave. I can finally leave. I just need to figure out why it didn't work. The math or science must have gone wrong somewhere. I'll figure it out eventually, I have to. I can't be stuck here forever. I just can't be. I can't take it.