Pov: CELESTIA
Everything hurts. Everything. I feel so drained. I feel so.......
Empty. Hollow. Like there's nothing left in me.
My head is pounding. My arms and legs feel useless. I try my best to move them but they feel so numb. Oh and let's not forget my heart. My heart that's aching. Aching for myself. Because of myself.
I pity, myself.
There are so many things i regret not doing, now that i think about it. There are so many things i wish i had the courage to do. So many things. I've been reminiscing all of them, trying to figure out how many of them are there but i think, i think i lost count.
I wish, i wish i hadn't thought so low of myself. Constantly degrading every single move i make. Constantly hating the way i did make them.
i wish, i had believed in myself. Doubting every intention i had. Doubting whether or not i was good enough.
i wish, i had been honest with my feelings. Holding back whenever I wanted to scream. Holding back whenever I wanted to cry.
And i wish, i wish with all my heart, that i could go back in time and not be such a coward. Not be such a fool. I don't think i need to explain anything on this.
I'm kind of confused to be very honest.I don't think I'm sleeping, no that can't be possible. I've been thinking about shit for the past one hour or so. Its not as if my eyes are simply closed either. I can't even explain what state I'm in right now.
Infact, i don't even know if I'm dead or not.
The thought of death seems so refreshing to me. And no, I'm not a creep, just hear me out on this okay?
People make death seem so horrifying and terrible. Like it's the worst thing that can happen to a person. When the only thing we know for sure about the dead is that they're not with us anymore.
We don't know if it's scary. If it's lonely. Infact we don't even know if it's better than living. Or if it's similar to it either.
Don't mind me. I'm not making assumptions here. Just think of it as a sliver of hope.
Because I want to believe that there's more in store for me than just this pathetic life I've lived.
I want to believe that I'll get a chance to live for myself and not just for other people. For once, i want to do things without being judged.
I want to live the life i want without any restrictions. I want to step out of the teeny tiny world I've lived in and actually do something reckless.
Something deep, meaningful or something just fun. I want to do something dangerous without knowing what the outcome will be and just face the consequences later.
I want to die. Because death sounds so much better than going back to how I've lived.
Death sounds like fun.
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Thank you so much
for reading! I'll be
posting a new chapter
within the week. I
really hope that you'll
read the other chapters
and follow Celestia
through her great journey!<3
note: sorry for the late updates ahah. Kind of lost motivation but I'm trying my best to push forward. Anyways, i know this chapter is short but don't worry I'll post two chapters next week to make up for it. Bye for now, see you next week 🚶😬
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Celestia | A fantasy romance
Fantasy"She is the embodiment of untamed fire." In the kingdom of Umral, every person acquires a sihra at the age of 18. Sihra are magical powers that come from an ancient relic called Yazilla. The relic was created by dragons thousands of years ago to pr...
