All of a sudden I felt my breathing starting to get faster. My heart is beating violently. I felt tears starting to form in my eyes. I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was being squished into a tiny room. I quickly sat up and started to hyperventilate. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my throat and tried to breathe but I couldn't. My tears started to fall and I couldn't control anything. My head started to hurt. I couldn't control my breathing and my heart beat. Or anything else. I can mostly keep it under control but now i lost it. I then felt Astroz pull me close to him and wrap his arms around me. I tried to get out of his arms and leave but I couldn't. He held onto him tightly. He placed his head on my shoulder and started to hum as he rocked me back and forth in his arms. My breathing and heartbeat I started to control again. But my tears couldn't stop. As I kept crying I turned around and wrapped my arms around him. I cried into his chest as he said, "It's ok Angel. Everythings alright. I'm right here Angel." I didn't know what to do apart from crying. I don't know what just happened but I know that it feels horrible. I never want to feel that feeling ever again. Why is Astroz still helping me? Why is he still here? Does he actually love me or is it just one of his games? Why would he ever love me? Out of all the other beautiful and smart girls, why did he pick me? All I would do is make him suffer. He'll burn in hell because of me. I can't do that to him. I would rather lose him than suffer because of me. I love him so much that I have to lose him. I then realised that Astroz was carrying me back to the house. "Astroz put me down please." he stopped walking and carefully let me down. I then said, "Astroz could you uhm go to town and get me a switchblade?" he kissed my head and said, "Alright Angel Head home I'll be back I love you." I kissed his lips softly and whispered, "I love you so much Astroz." He kissed me and then started to head to town. When I could no longer see him I ran home and grabbed a knife from the kitchen. I went upstairs and locked myself in me and Astroz's room. No one can get in or out. I sat on the bed and rested against the headboard. As tears fell from my eyes I put the blade of the knife against my warm skin. "Forgive me father for I have sinned." After I said that I cut my arm and with each cut I made I went more up and when I was about to cut my wrist Astroz broke down the door. I lost a lot of blood so i didn't have any energy to talk. I felt Astroz sit behind me holding me close. He then put his arm ontop of mine and said, "If you want to cut yourself use my arm instead." I shook my head and oftly said, "I could never hurt you Bunny." He then kissed my cheek as he said, "thank don't hurt yourself. I can't lose you Angel." I looked down at my arm and saw Astroz covering it with whitbandages. Blood seeped through but he continued to cover it with bandages. When he finished wrapping the bandages around my arm he tied it around my wrist so then it wouldn't come undone. I then weakly tried to get up but fell and Astroz hurried as he came and picked me up. "You're too weak to even walk Angel. Why don't we push the wedding date and change it until you're strong again." I shook my head and said, "No, I'm strong enough. Trust me Bunny, I'll be ok by morning. I promise." He laid me down in bed and covered me with a blanket. He laid down next to me and said, "Alright. We'll see how you wake up. But if I see that you're weak we're pushing the date." I smiled and kissed his head. "Thank you My precious little Bunny." I could feel him smiling as he buried his face into my neck. But I could Also feel his tears falling onto my neck and sliding down. As he cried I felt a weird feeling in my stomach. I played with his hair as I kissed his head and said, "I'm sorry my Bunny. I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I thought this could prevent you from suffering. I don't want to be the cause of your suffering. I love you way too much to be the cause of your suffering. I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I'm sorry I promise I'll try to never do it ever again. I'm sorry bunny." I kissed his head multiple times and I stopped as he said, "It's alright Angel. And i know i don't know what your going through but i have tried to kill myself many times. I used to have nothing to lose but now I have you. And I can't lose you. I have too much to lose now." I lifted his head and kissed him. He kissed me back and I pulled away. "You give me strength, Astroz. You're the only thing in this world that I need." I said as I looked into his gorgeous bright blood red eyes. I could see a slight blush on his face. I smiled and kissed him softly once on his lips and once on his nose. He then buried his face into my neck once again and held me close. My arm was still sore but I wrapped my arms around his head and held him close. I then started to hum the song that he hummed to me. As I hummed I closed my eyes and I quickly fell asleep. When I woke up I felt Astroz squeez me tightly as he kissed my cheek. I smiled and opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was my arm. The bandages were filled with blood. I sat up and rubbed my eyes with my right hand. "Heyyyy where are you goingggg?" I smiled and said, "I need to go change my bandages and we're getting married today so I need to clean my wounds and wrap my arm in bandages again. I love you and I'll see you later, bunny." I then grabbed some bandages and a bottle of liquor. I went to the bathroom and put my arm over the sink. I unwrapped my arm and put the bandages to the side. I then grabbed the liquor bottle and opened it. I poured the liquor over my arm and it burned. I then put the bottle down and wrapped it again with the bandages. I tied it and then started to clean the bathroom because my blood was almost everywhere. As I cleaned I looked at the time and it was 12 p.m. I had a lot of time left so I continued to clean the bathroom. When i finished i left the bathroom and headed back to me and Astroz's room. When I entered, Astroz was gone and the room was cleaned. I looked around and saw that he left a letter.
