Broken [Aizawa x reader]

Chapter 17 - Cocaine hearts

CW: drug consumption/addiction.

A/N: The actions and depictions of drug addiction in this chapter are based on internet research and part of my imagination, they're not accurate and real at all. This is not how they work in real life and addiction should not be romanticized, this is solely for literature and entertainment purposes.

It was a Friday afternoon and I was sitting on the couch in Dabi's apartment, the dim purple LED lights were the only source of light inside the living room where we were happily smoking away our problems. I was supposed to be doing homework and Dabi skipped his shift at his work but who cares.

I was sitting on his lap watching a movie with him when Dabi suddenly broke the silence, "I got you a little something that you might like." He said and reached for his pocket on his sweatshirt, pulling out a small black box with a red ribbon sealing it close.

He handed it to me and my eyes widened, a smile making its presence on my face. We were just a few months into our relationship so this was unexpected, "open it." Dabi brought me out of my shock and planted a kiss on my cheek.

So without further ado, I undone the ribbon and opened the box. Inside was a golden necklace with a heart at the end. I smiled and looked at Dabi with a grateful expression on my face. I gently kissed his lips and muttered a quiet 'thank you' against them.

"That's not all, doll. Open the heart." He told me and I did as he said, I carefully unattached the upper part of the heart and out came a little spoon filled with a familiar white powder, my mouth hung open from surprise, I definitely wasn't expecting that. I've already tried cocaine a couple of times, when weed was just not enough anymore, and I liked the rush of energy it gave me. It helped me go through boring classes and mask my dead expression during school, but I never did more than a couple lines every now and then. Though I hate the burning sensation it left on my nose afterwards.

"Do you like it?" Dabi asked me while moving my hand holding the spoon filled closer to my nose, "Now you can have your little stash with you wherever you go." I inhaled the substance and fluttered my eyes close, Dabi began leaving passionate kisses along my jaw, neck and collarbone. "It can help calm your anxiety," he whispered, his hot breath hitting my neck sent shivers down my spine and I melted more into his embrace. I nodded my head slowly with my eyes still shut closed, the drug was starting to take effect and I closed the little heart charm, not wanting to spill anything of its contents.

"And it's all free, whenever you need a refill." He continued whispering into my skin. I opened my eyes and stared straight into his cerulean orbs, "because you're mine, right, princess?" I absentmindedly nodded at his words, not even registering them from the fuzzy feeling in my brain.

***

Weeks had passed and my body was growing accustomed to the effects of the drug, where one or two lines were just not enough but I was too scared to take a third one, scared of becoming an addict; oblivious to the fact that I already was one.

Today I was having an important exam to which I didn't study at all from being with Dabi, adding the fact that I couldn't sleep the night before so I needed all the energy I could get. Without thinking much of it, I inhaled my last three lines I had prepared earlier and headed to school.

Thankfully, I aced the test but I was exhausted after the effects of the drug wore off. I felt like if I hadn't slept in years and I was just halfway through the day, I had to meet up with Jiro at the end of school day at the library to look over our final project and I didn't know if I would make it until then.

When lunch came by, I was already a mess. I was sweating cold and breathing heavily, I looked like I was dead. I had to hide in the women's restroom and try to calm down there but it was no use. I needed more cocaine, I needed Dabi.