Pity party | e.jaeger

01.Jealousy

"I just can't let you go, I'm so obsessed with you"
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After Years of being cooped up indoors, your boyfriend felt it was time to take you out and explore the world simply for your birthday. You chose to have a breakfast dinner with your friend's, despite Eren's disapproval.
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As you walked into the café for breakfast, you were met by Jean, Connie, and Armin. Jean decided to talk and ask a dumb question when you and your friends were eating. " So y/n, it's been months since I've seen you, have you and Eren been getting it on lately?" he winks at you, and you blushed and scream " WHAT NO!" Jean smirked and said, "Hmm." Miskasa and the others giggled quietly to themselves.
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You started to feel guilty as you ate when you realized that you had forgotten to let Eren know where you would be; all he knows is that you are out enjoying breakfast, but not where. The moment you reached for your phone to send him a text, you had the unsettling sensation that someone was watching you. Turning around, you saw Eren staring at you as though he were about to drill a hole in your head., his green eyes seemingly focused on my e/c eyes. I looked away and looked at Mikasa for help but when I turned around Eren appeared, and I jumped, " Hiii- Eren "
With a force smile on his face, he asked , "What are you guys doing?" "Oh nothing babe, we're just having breakfast for my birthday like you said I can," you smiled warmly, looking up to see nothing but darkness in his eyes, as if he hated seeing you around other people, especially around Jean, who had a huge crush on you before you met Eren, but you never felt that way with him because you always thought of him as a big brother. Eren looks down at you and tells you to get up "I'm not even finished with my food".
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You don't have time to think before He grabs your wrist and yanks you out of the door, shoving you into the car as he yells at you. He's been telling you that he'll leave you if you continue to ignore him and that you should tell him where you were. His words to you were along the lines of "you never listen to me," "you could have told me where you was," and "if you let this happen again, I'm leaving you because you're easily replaceable." You tuned out because this wasn't  the first time he did this "Hey—hey". He says while looking at you in the eyes "I'm sorry, baby, I didn't mean it. You know that I never do." He sits beside you, with his hand on your cheek.
You look up at him, your eyes tearing up with tears.
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"There she is, my wonderful girl". He wipes the tears off your cheeks with his hands. You have noticed his actions. Repeatedly and repeatedly and repeatedly. It's the same old routine—he manipulates you, makes you feel weak, tells you you're stupid, and threatens to harm you if you ever leave him.
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You never told him how you really felt Because you're worried about the consequences of telling him the truth.
You'll tell him you were done with the relationship and that you were sick of feeling the way you did when you were with him.
His usual smirk returns, and he says something else. You know, the one that makes you believe things will get better. You have to wonder if this is it, if this would be the final time.
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"You just frustrate me sometimes, you know?"He says . "I hate the way he looks at you, especially the way JEAN stares at you... ". There was a long pause you turn to look at him and you can see that he was angry "I'm really sorry you went out to breakfast with him." His hand slips up your thigh, under your skirt, and onto the side of your ass.
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You close your eyes, attempting to not cry . Whenever he would get angry/overwhelmed he would come to you and "blow off some steam "
"It'll never happen again ,I do it to keep you safe, darling. Always." He kisses your forehead and pulls you in close.
He asks, serious and genuine, "Do you still love me?
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You could never figure out how he could change his attitude so fast and convincingly.
You take a deep breath and try to make eye contact with him.
"Yes." It was correct. You adore him. But on the other hand, you hated him.
"Good," he said, nodding. "That's good As much as you love me, I love you even more." This time he kissed your lips.
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You close your eyes, mostly because it hurts to keep them open, but also because you appreciate it. This kiss was so gentle that it reminded you of the way he kissed you before everything happened. You yearned for the way things used to be. "How about I give you a bath?" He kissed the top of your head and went to the bathroom without waiting for you to respond.
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In the tub, you clutched your knees to your chest and made ripples with your fingers in the water. Eren sat beside you on a stool, pouring soap into the tub. His fingers brushed over your cheek, as if checking to see if you were okay.
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You gave him a half-hearted smile but remained motionless in your cradle. You were numb because you had cried so hard. Your eyes were puffy and your lips were swollen. The tears were still flowing. He took your arms away from your knees to scrub them, but you quickly replaced them.
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"Have you and Jean known each other for a long time?" He approaches you from behind and begins to wash your hair.
You sat up taller, your breasts just beneath the water's surface.
"We've been friends since elementary school, and we used to be pretty close." When Eren scrubs the back of your head, you close your eyes. "Why?" , "Well....,"A sigh escapes his lips. Since... he suddenly says, "I think you should no longer be friends with Jean."
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He tugs on your hair a little too firmly. "Eren—too rough ." You shiver. "Sorry, sweetie," he blinks. "However, you don't need to worry about Jean. We hardly speak because—"
Eren clasped your shoulders with both hands. "You didn't see how he stares at you, y/n, do you?" He desired you. He desired to make contact with you. And no one is allowed to touch you." He slipped his hands down your chest, pinching and rubbing your nipples. "I'm the only one."
Your head rolls back to rest on Eren's shoulder as you shudder.
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"Understand? I'm the only one who can see, touch, and penetrate you." You let out little sighs as his hands move deeper and deeper into the water,
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"E-Eren..." you say, your palm clutching at his bicep as you thrust your hips in time with his fingers pushing in and out of you.
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"Fuck," he says, rolling his eyes back. Say it once again.""Eren...do not stop." Your head is resting heavily on Eren's shoulder, as if your soul is about to burst. "Then who do you belong?" His fingers were in sync with each word. "You." You mumble, barely able to make a sound. "Hm? "I can't hear you." His hand becomes sluggish, and he won't let you finish until he gets what he wants.
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"Eren, you. I'm all yours. S-So, please continue." You say it as loudly as you possibly could given how difficult it was for you to breathe.
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"You're a good girl." He kisses your brow."You're a good girl." His fingers play with you to an almost unbearable degree.
Then you let out a "Oh...", the pleasure coursing through your body in waves. "Look at the total mess you've created." He gives you soft kisses.