Pity party | e.jaeger

03.Memories

"Sometimes you've been with an idea or a goal or a person so long that it's a deep part of you. And without them, it's like you have to figure out a whole new person to be"

I didn't know much about you, like how your voice sounded or how your touch felt. but I fell in love. It's not something you can explain with words. You just had the feeling that you were different from everyone else. You had a spark that no one else had, and something so valuable . I fell in love with you, then.

Eren's heart completely melted as he saw the smile that Y/n had plastered across her face. The mere thought of her was enough to send him into a rage. What could this woman have possible done to earn such a deep and lasting affection from him? The way in which her hair moved gracefully when the wind blew. The effortless way in which her grin could turn a dark room into a bright one. The consistent method in which she managed to brighten his day, even when things seemed their roughest. As you were wearing nothing but one of his shirts and one of your underwear, you were dancing around the kitchen, and he couldn't help but soak in every moment of it. You had such a carefree attitude, not a single concern in the world, since you knew that Eren would always look out for you. As he stood there in awe, memories began to rush back into his head.

[In the past two years]
You were still feeling uneasy about the people around you when you met Eren. At the time, you were at your local library trying to find a book that you needed for your chemistry class. You were aware that all the books might already be checked out because your teacher had assigned an important test. that you make the decision to refrain from asking other individuals in your class for assistance, You were searching for the book for your class when you located it, but it was really high up on the shelf. You attempted to reach it by standing on your tiptoes, but someone bumped into you and stopped you from doing so.

[Erens pov]

When he hit a woman's arm with his shoulder a little too hard, it was because he hadn't been paying attention to where he was going.
After tripping and looking up, he was afraid of what might be waiting for him, but when his eyes met the gentle expression of the woman in front of him, he felt himself begin to relax. She could have frowned or glared, but instead she smiled broadly over her face. As soon as his eyes met hers, he was rendered speechless since he was completely transfixed by her beauty. As she glanced at the man with the dark brown hair, her cheerful expression gradually transformed into one of concern. "I'm really sorry about that, I guess I should have been paying more attention to what I was doing."
Eren gave a reassuring smile, and his guard began to relax a little bit. "Oh, no, I was the one who did it. Instead of observing where my feet were going, I should have been more aware of my surroundings.

Memories upon memories were swarming you, something you was rather fond of. You caught his gaze on you as you was sitting on the couch , the food he were preparing finally baking. "What's the mattered sweetheart" to you painted your face once again. Something you wished to be a permanent fixture.

"Oh nothing," she said. You moved closer to Him after getting up from the couch that was positioned between the living room and the kitchen. His strong arms surrounded you and held you tight, protecting you from the possibility that he would disappear if you ever let go of him.You touched his face with both of your hands. "Eren," As he tightened his hold on your waist, the look of concern on your face remained unchanged. "What happened to the old you?" "Who are you now?""What do you mean." He pressed his forehead head against yours for a moment. Having this thought brings to mind how big of a difference you made in my life. It had been nothing but love and happiness up until this point, and now you're wondering what went wrong."I haven't yet figured out how to live without you," she said. Your statement caused him to reflect; while he was aware that you had not intended any harm by it, it brought to his attention the fact that his insecurities had always been lurking in the background.
*Three Years Ago*

Eren's friend Armin held a spot where most couples went for their first dates, and Eren was no different. he asked his friend to help him plan a date for you and him at the location Armin held. The man's face revealed that he was anxious more than anything else could have done. Your eyes never left him as he stuttered through his hello and never once moved away from him. How long had it been since he had gone on a date?

Eren helped you by pulling out the chair and allowing you to sit in comfortable before helping you in pushing the chair closer to the table. A young woman positioned a glass of water in front of both of you as he sat down on the opposite side of Y/n from you. Eren made an effort to begin a conversation by using his hands to speak; however, while he was doing so, his hand accidentally knocked his glass. His expression became mortified as he frantically searched for napkins while loudly apologizing for his behavior.Your gentle chuckle caused him to pause and turn in your direction. You reassuring him while handing him one of your napkins was a thoughtful gesture. "Don't be so uptight Eren. It's okay."He appeared to be very nervous as he placed his hand behind his head and grinned. "I can't remember the last time I did something remotely similar to this.""I can tell." You touched his shoulder with your hand. "You don't have to work so hard, Eren. I like you just the way you are."

I was foolish You are truly one of the most loving people I've ever had the privilege of knowing." You lifted his chin with your hand and raised the tilt of his head. "The only thing that matters is that I love you," she said to him.Eren knelt down and reached inside the pocket of his vest, pulling out a little box. He then placed the box on his knee. "I was intending to wait to do this until there was a more romantic environment, but now I can't wait any longer." He opened the little box and brought it toward you as he lifted it. Within of it was a tiny silver band, and on top of that band was a tiny diamond. "Y/n, there aren't enough words to explain how much I love you. You have been of more helpful to me than anybody else could ever be. Thank you. Whether you are aware of it or not, you do a lot of things for yourself.... Will you give me the honor of becoming a Yeager and therefore making me the happiest guy on the face of the earth?

You felt a tear roll down your cheek, and then you rushed over to hug him. He closed the box at the last second, preventing himself from dropping the ring, and grasped you as you were stumbling a bit under the influence of the thrill caused by your jump. Because you were unable to express what you wanted to say, he did it for you. "So you're saying that's a yes?"You gave a small nod and then placed your hands on his face, pushing him closer to you while smothering him in gentle kisses all over his body.

You knew that Eren would never be like this again, so you knew that this had to be a dream. You can feel your self waking you slowly flutter your eyes open blinded by the bright lights You tried to stand up, but something pulled you back and made you fall to the floor. As you sat there, you tried to get familiar with your surroundings, and that's when your heart sank. You saw chains on your arms and legs, The last thing you remember hearing before the torture began was Eren smiling at you while he sat in a chair and , saying "good morning love, you're finally awake."