"EXPLAIN GODDAMN IT! YOU PLANNED IT ALL!! YOU SELFISH BITCH!!" I shout raging at him, I just wanted to punch him in the face, my insides felt like they were dying to, "look..it wasn't intentional-" "Oh! So you trying to disband Straykids wasn't intentional? You planning to hurt me wasn't intentional!!?" I yell at him even more that I think the others woke up "Look! How can you even believe that thing! I'm your member you should trust me more than the internet!" He complains but it's not convincing "I'd trust a stranger more than you! So just stop and admit it! You wanted me to suffer! You tried to kill me!" The door bursts open "Guys Wtf! Do you see what time it is-" Seungmin looks at us both "Minho? Hyunjin?" ..Once again that awkward silence "you have a lot of explaining to do in the morning."
9:45am
Felix's POV:
"Come on Chan..please open the door! It's me Felix..please" No matter how much I beg still nothing, it's like I was trying to talk to a ghost, did he not trust me? No! I'm his best buddy of course he does! Right?, Panic starts to spread all over me, Tears filling my eyes "Chan open the door!!" I yell I anger slamming my hand on the door repeatedly before a hand pulls me back "Felix...Just leave him alone.." Changbin speaks, pulling me into his embrace "It's okay.."...
3 days later it's Saturday
"SEUNGMIN! SEUNGMIN! ITS RAINING!!" Jeongin yells at Seungmin like he's never seen rain "yeah yeah whatever". It's been 3 days but nothing has changed, Jeongin tries to lighten up the mood at times but some he can't. Chan has forever been in his room but Felix won't stop trying. Changbin has been trying his best to comfort Felix but he just ignores him, Han on the other hand went on haitus because he injured his back during practice.
Bangchan's POV:
I hear Felix everyday, every second and the time is closer, 1 more day and Straykids disbandment will be announced. I don't know what to do!, Felix keeps pounding on the door will he just stop!!, I get up and storm to the door about to open it but then I stop, no... it's for the better right? Screw it! I slowly open the door revealing a Red eyes Felix, Black Mascara distroyed around his eyes with bangs under his eye lids, when was the last time he's slept?
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"Felix?" "B-b-bangchan?- OH MY GOD BANGCHAN!" He jumps onto me hugging me like it was the last time he'd ever see me, his hands touching every inch of my face, it's just like the first time his met me but in a different case, "What? Felix- that's my mouth!" I pull away "s-sorry just- that- why- YOU- here!" He hugs me again as he sobs into my shoulder, how long was I in my room for, I thought it was just 2 days? "You didn't come out your room for 4 days you idiot!!" He cups my face in his hands "What.." I was shocked myself, I only planned to say for 2 days to think everything over.
Felix looks broken, hurt, did I do that? Did I cause this? I never liked to see Felix crying, especially because of me. "Felix.. I'm sorry-" "Shut up!" He slaps me across the face "How could you! You made me suffer like hell!!" I deserved that "Fuck you and your- your! Your-.. your" he starts to tears up again his voice cracking, He's making me weak again.."Fuck.." he slams his lips onto mine, Wait..what..the..Fuck was he doing!! I shove him off me wiping my mouth "wtf!! That was disgusting!! Felix!" I blurt out, he only looks at me in disbelief, "dis..dis.. disgusting?" He suddenly starts laughing "DISGUSTING? SO BEING FUCKING GAY IS DISGUSTING? Fuck you Christopher Bangchan!" "wait- I didn't-" He storms off to his room slamming it shut, did I do something wrong? I never meant that being gay is disgusting..it's was just.. surprising and..I..never kissed anyone in my life..except him..and I fucking messed up! I love him but I screwed everything up!.
Felix's POV:
As I slam my door shut I fall on my knees crying my heart out, HOW COULD HE! HE DOESN'T LOVE ME!! I repeated in my head as I felt like my brain was going to explode before my door opens slowly "Want to talk about it?" Changbin enters closing the door, "Ch-Changbin..!" I hug him as I let out more tears.
"It's okay..Let it out" was the last words I heard before I passed out on Changbin, I knew I would, after all those pills I took to try fall asleep, I was bound to. Now how am I going to explain this to Changbin.
The next day
Felix's POV:
I wake up with a loud headache "Fuck.. my head" I stand up after gaining my sight stable, what happened? I walk out the room and down stairs, what time was it? All I know is that it is night time? I walk to the kitchen to get something to drink, my head really hurts. As I pour a glass of water into a cup I look at the window near the sink and a note catches my eye 'I'm sorry I wasn't a good leader' was all I could read from a far. I stop the tap and walk towards the note picking it up,"Dear Straykids, I know your all probably mad at me and I get it.. I'm sorry I'm not a good leader and I didn't tell you guys sooner but..Straykids disbands on Monday, and it's Sunday right now.. please pack your things and move out tomorrow..im sorry and once again.. Felix..I know I hurt you ALOT, I have been a dick to you and treated you like shit, but it's only because I was scared to tell you the truth..Felix..I fucking love you, with all my heart. I have always ever since the day I laid eyes on your beautiful brown eyes, but.. Because of all that has been happening, I didn't want to make it worse by mentioning it. And also I know Hyunjin and Minho have made up already that's why I think it's safe to tell you. I don't know who is reading this right now but if it's you Felix, I hope you'll enjoy your life with someone who deserves you, read the files from Jyp Pidnim on the table. Bye Straykids. °°°°°°° OOP THANK YOU GUYS FOR READING I REALLY WANTED TO WRITE ANOTHER PAGE! SO I DID, ALSO I DO DANCING FOR A LIVING AND I JUST GOT LET INTO MY DREAM COMPANY P&P YAYY
