𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

【Ｃｈａｐｔｅｒ ２】

Ｒｅｓｅｔ

And here we are about to leave the country... and the continent. I admit it, I'm fucking nervous.

If I already know a week ago I was very excited and maybe I even prepared ahead of time, but I don't know what happens if the same thing happens to me in California as here? Or if I do worse in school, damn there are too many thoughts, I don't even know what's wrong with me or why I'm like this.

This is simple Camila, you are going to get off, you are going to take that taxi with your mother and sister while your father is in the car, then you are going to go to the airport, get on that damn plane and then go to your new house. It can not be that hard.

Breathe.

Everything will be fine, even if you don't believe it, everything will be fine, this is not the time to get upset, there is still time for anything. What time is it?

3:00 pm, I have exactly one fucking hour?! Shit I got stressed again

"Cami"Hearing my sister's voice made me at least 10% more tense

That already meant... 15 minutes passed!?Damn now what do I doIt won't give me time to calm down now before the flight. It's not because I'm afraid of planes and such. It's because I'm literally a nervous wreck, I can't even talk to an adult because right away my legs start to feel warm and I have to hold back my tears. And now with all this change I only see that my future is full of tears. I'm literally so nervous I almost fell down the stairs (luckily no one saw it), now if Camila calm down. How many times have I said that today? Well never mind. I can still listen to music all the way and read from time to time. Literally for me that's like a tranquilizer pill.

I remember that this year when I had stress attacks I used to do that and it calmed me down I didn't even remember that I had to do something I even fell asleep many times. The part where I fell asleep also helped me a lot since I've always had some trouble sleeping.

So now its time to leave this house... finally... no more assholes like my classmates of this year... at least by now... walk to the car and then... everything will be gone... ok... im ready ;)

Now with back in hand and music in ears i leaved the house and got into the car, put music on (Summertime Sadness-Lana Del Rey) and open muy book and start to read. Goodbye shity village now everything by now is gone. I hope that everything will change for good to me and for my sister. Suddenly I feel something tugging at the little left sleeve of my jacket. It was Estela.

"Hey Cami when we get to the new house. Would you like to play volleyball?"Obviously, as I could imagine, she said it with immense emotion on her face. "Hell yeah. Why not?"I said it with a lot of motivation, but that was exactly what I needed now. Once at the airport, I did everything necessary to get on the plane. Obviously my father, like any European father, was in a hurry. Well, my father is American, in fact he is from a city near Brea (the city where we will go now) but who knows, maybe he already has copied all the mechanisms of a European father. Everything can be done in 14 years. I sat down and...

Damn I didn't get the seat next to the sale. Well what does it matter, what does it matter not fuck now I have more anxiety than before. Well Camila calm down damn, You don't want people to notice that and you're the center of attention right?. Be in the limelight? no FUCKING way.

To my bad luck I was next to a lady I didn't know, damn if she talks to me I'm finished. But now yes, for my good luck my father was behind me, therefore he would already have someone to talk to ... or not everything depends on whether I want to talk or he wants to talk. I better talk to him by text, knowing that we are both the same, that would be the best option.