The sheets felt way too warm, Levi put them lower, lifting one leg on top of it. He turned around, on his left, nothing, sigh, he turned back to his back and then on the right side again. He couldn't fall asleep, it was still night, he could tell because the room was all dark and he barely recognized Erwin next to him.
He was facing his naked back, wide shoulders, and a waist, the rest was covered with thin sheets. Levi was too lazy to move his hand but he could feel how soft and warm his skin would be, he could hug himself to his back but he prefers to stare and not disturb him in his sleep. His sleep didn't come, he was wondering if he had fallen asleep at all.
He remembered their shower, holding Erwin in his arms, talking about his job, and Mike then Erwin moved aside when he fell asleep leaving Levi with his blank mind. Maybe he was staring at the ceiling all the time? He didn't even know how much time had passed since that.
Erwin was so quiet, his shoulders were barely lifting but Levi didn't check if he was breathing, he went to the bathroom instead. Turned on the cold water and let it flow for a while when he leaned his arms against the sink, looking down at nothing in particular.
He didn't know why the sleep wasn't coming, he was so tired but now only the weird anxious feeling take over him. He took cold water in his hand and washed his face with it, his bangs got wet too and the water dripped on his chest. The bathroom felt different now, the light was weak and he barely could recognize his reflection in the mirror.
His back hurt and his body were feeling weak, he looked down and closed his eyes, the cold water on his face felt good and the memories of today were in his mind. He moved his neck side to side and heard his neck crack, the river took away two bodies, he was wondering if someone would even find them? He wasn't worried about Kenny's body but the strange man-made him worry.
His fingers clenched on the sink when his mind came back to what happened later. He still could feel the weight of Erwin's body on him when he pushed him against the cold glass doors and did with him whatever he wanted to. And the words.
The words he said to him, did he ever use them before? He wasn't sure if that's what is called love but Erwin seemed to be pleased after that.
If love is a deep trust, sacrifice, and a will to be close to someone then he guesses it's love.
Shivers ran down his spine as the cold air reached the bathroom. He heard footsteps and thought that Erwin had woken up so he turned the water off, and rubbed his face lightly with the towel he wasn't keen on touching.
He turned off the lights and came back to the room.
"Erwin?"
He asked with a voice unlike him, it trembled a little but it still was a whisper. Erwin was sitting on the edge of the bed, the sheets stayed on the bed but his body still wasn't visible. He didn't answer, maybe he was still sleeping? Levi came closer to the bed, sat on his knees near Erwin, and when his hand reached to brush his hair Erwin's hands stopped him, grip on his wrist was hard and he couldn't break it.
Levi looked down at the fingers around his wrist, they were slim and dirty, covered in something like mud, they didn't look like Erwin's fingers. The grip clenched more and Levi hissed in pain.
"You thought it would be so easy to get rid of me?"
The voice was familiar, he looked up at the old face, with long brown hair, and a wide smile.
No, no, no. It couldn't be real, Levi killed him, he did it with his hand, he wasn't supposed to be here, not anymore.
He squeezed his eyes wishing deep in his mind that it would help and when he opens his eyes he will be back by Erwin's side in the bed. He opened his eyes but it did nothing, he just freed his hand from the grip hearing Kenny's laugh, it sounded terrible.
