The disappointment and worry overwhelmed Levi when he came back home still without any message or a sign of life from Erwin. It wasn't unlike him to disappear like that and it wasn't like Levi to worry so much.
He took a hot shower and went to his bed, finally, his bed.
He left the lamp on, phone in his hands and the sheets covered his legs. The pile of pillows behind his back felt nice as he answered on Hanji's text about the supply of bandages for Mike. Then checked his messages again two times and nothing from Erwin.
Levi sighed, put the phone aside and bring his bare knees to his chest, his chin rested on his knee and his mind couldn't rest for a while.
Somehow it felt different, he didn't want to think about this that much, trying to convince himself that he will meet him tomorrow at work, so to keep his mind away from the worries he turned off the lamp, closed his eyes and lay in a strange position with his legs still to his chest.
His mind couldn't stay blank.
The words "I love you" popped up in his mind and he felt a light squeeze in his chest on that thought. He turned on his back, his eyes open now and he took a deep breath.
At first, he wasn't sure if it's really this feeling, he and Erwin had always a different relationship, full of questions without answers and full of actions without explanation.
They would kiss, they would share a bed and they would argue but Levi never thought he could feel just like he is feeling now.
Feeling the need to know where Erwin is, to be with him, to feel his warmth, scent and weight because it really sucks and he can't sleep of his lack of presence.
Levi guessed it's love and it sucks.
It sucks because since he remembers he was counting on himself, didn't worry about others and didn't feel the need to. He was, or still is, a person who don't get too many friends because of his character, that's what most of people were talking about him, and Erwin was one of the few who got close to him despite this barrier.
And he appreciates it, he always did know that Erwin is there for him and the short thought that Erwin could disappear felt like panic.
After knowing Erwin for that amount of time Levi thought nothing would surprise him in the way he feels for him but this weird desire to be with him was getting stronger and it irritated him.
He pressed the quilt to his chest, put it between his legs and tightened them, then turned on his right side, his cheek pressing against the cool pillow and he fell asleep squeezing the quilt.
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He could ignore him how much he wanted but he couldn't skip the work. He and Levi took already two days off.
Levi came on time, everyone was already here and the first thing he did was go to Erwin's office. He held the handle harshly and pulled it with even bigger force, he could pull the handle out but the door did not even budge.
"Commander Shadis," His hands leaned against the table, his eyes narrowed and face expressionless with a wrinkle between his brows.
"Huh?" Keith looked up from the computer at Levi. "How official, what's your problem, Levi?" He asked being pleasant by Levi's rarely polite words, but his posture still needed to be correct.
"Where the hell is Erwin?"
He looked surprised by the question, took off his glasses and massaged the bridge of his nose to get rid of the mark from glasses. "Don't you know?"
"Know what?" He answered really fast.
"Erwin, he had a car accident, yesterday."
Levi gulped, feeling how he lacks saliva and when he speaks his voice sounds different. "Car accident? Is he in the hospital?"
