My Son's Best Friend

12. Waiting Game

It's been sooooo long I'm so sorry😩😩 I love y'all so much 😍😮‍💨💓💪🏾👁💁🏾‍♀️

I pee'd on the stick and sat there impatiently, I swear time always goes by slow with these things.

I set a time and paced my bedroom floor...the timer went off and I ran to see the results.

"Not pregnant?" I said in disbelief as I read it again. I threw the test down and slid down the wall..

We've been trying for months now and nothing, I just want my baby. I cried my eyes out for the next few minutes...I couldn't help but wonder if my age was a factor.

I got a text from Jahseh..

Hey baby, what it say?!? I'm finna be a daddy?! 😭🥰😮‍💨😘

I just read it cuz I didn't wanna let him down.

Baby? I see you reading this don't do this to me damn this suspense is too much!

I cried even harder and lost it..I heard him yell my name and I couldn't get off the floor fast enough. I wiped my tears quickly and dried my face. The door burst open and he looks at me...

"Tara what's wrong baby? Why you crying?" He rushed over to me holding me tight. I seen him pick up the test..

"Damn! Look at me, don't cry baby we gonna have our love child I promise. We gonna keep trying don't get discouraged."

"I don't understand why it's not happening I'm healthy we do it extra when I ovulate, I've tried all the tricks online. I'm sick of waiting! I'm only getting older."

"And more beautiful as you age. Your age isn't the problem baby you just gotta manifest it and let it go. The universe will give us our gift when we are content without it. It'll be when you least expect." He kissed me and rubbed my eyes drying all my tears.

He started singing to me softly and his voice soothed me so much...He dried my tears and looked at me making sure I was okay...

I hugged him tight and thought about what I could have possibly done to deserve him. I'm so thankful for him..

"I love you baby."

"I love you more beautiful."

*

The next few months were full of disappointment, I went to see a specialist and they recommended IVF. Jah didn't hesitate to pay whatever for it, almost a year into shots and appointments and nothing.

"What if I never get pregnant this isn't fair to you." I said on the verge of a breakdown. I've been depressed and laying in bed all day stuck in my head.

"You will baby okay? My grandma seen it already. How about...we go shop for a few baby things just to get ready?" I looked at him like he was crazy then started crying.

"I don't deserve you." He helped me up and I got dressed...

*

We walked in the store and he got a basket..the clerk gave us a tool to add things on our registry.

"Look at this, this is pretty cool." He said looking at the baby crib."

"It is really cute, we have to decided on nursery colors. Maybe we can paint the walls a neutral color until we find out." I smiled and he grabbed my hand and we walked along. I picked up the cutest outfit for a little girl...

"Daddy spoils me, so he's the boss." I laughed reading the shirt, he smiled really big.

"We gonna get this today." He put it in the basket..he seen a breast pump and looked confused...

"W-what the hell?"

"It's for my titties silly." The light bulb went off and he smiled.

"Titty milk!" He said loudly making me laugh tryna dig his hand in my shirts..after 30 minutes the basket was loaded. We got all our things and went to the car..we stopped at Walmart so I could get some things for dinner.

"What you wanna eat?"

"Shteak." I rolled my eyes..

"I knew that, fine but you getting veggies too."

"Deal." We got everything and stopped at the baby section.

"This is cute." He held up a little pink tutu and some bows to match. I took a pic of him and looked at the size...

"It's newborn let's get it baby it's so cute, I want a girl sooooo bad."

"I'm scared cuz I feel like I'm gone have to kill a nígga." He shook his head and put it in the basket. We did some more shopping and checked out.

We left there and went to a furniture store, we picked out a bunch of things and bought them. They're delivering everything later this week..

"My baby wanna go shopping to ease her mind? I know that always helps you."

"No baby I just wanna lay in bed, I'm not really feeling it."

"How about we go have a spa day, just me and you beautiful. Don't get down about things, we will always figure it out together." He kissed me and we pulled up to the spa his mama told him about.

We got in and it was so beautiful inside, the energy was so strong inside. We got in a healing bath and we were rubbed down so good I fell asleep.

"Uhhhhh, baby this feels so good." I looked up and he was looking at me sexually. M

"Baby girl don't be doing that you getting me excited." The massage therapist laughed and shook her head at me, they finished and left the room.

She was getting up and I made her lay back down, I kissed her lips softly untying her robe.

"Jahseh w-what." She couldn't even finish her sentence, I put her pussy in my mouth. She's been so stressed lately she need some excitement...

She moaned lowly and I crawled up to her looking in her eyes....

"I want you. Now." I held her legs open and slapped my dagger on it...

I pushed it in slowly as they knocked on the door...I been locked it. I kept slow stroking her as she rubbed her clit. She was clinching already making my shit jump...

I sped up my pace and choked her as my eyes rolled back...

"I love you baby! I-I love you."

"I love you more." I kissed her as I sprayed my kids inside of her warm pussy."