Bestfriends I think (Natasha x Female reader)

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As soon as she closed the door she started crying.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, nothing is wrong."

"Nat I know that something is wrong."

"Then tell me what happened."

"Nothing happened, just please leave me alone."

"If you need me you know where to find me."

I left and went back to the other avengers. They were now talking about some party, that is going to happen next week. 

The next day

I woke up 4 am, I don't even know why I woke up so early. I could't sleep anymore so I got dressed and went to the roof, where I watched the stars and then later the sunrise. It was so beautiful. One of my goals in life is to take the person that makes me happy and that I love to come watch sunrise on a beach. One of them is to watch the sunset and the stars on some mountain on the back of my car.

As I was watching the sky, I heard my phone getting a notification. Nat send me a message, it said that she was ready to talk to me, about last night. I got up and I made my way to her room. I knocked on her door. 

"Come in." she said.

I opened the door and when I saw her she looked like she was living on the streets, like she was homeless or something. We both sat on two different sides of her bed.

"So what happened yesterday?"

At first she was quiet, so I got closer I pulled her into hug. 

"Can we please move to the top of my bed?"

We moved to her pillows and I at first didn't know, what we are going to do now, but as soon as she made her way to my side and put her right leg on my leg, the feeling that I had when I was with her came back, but this time it was stronger.

(Pretend that this is you and Natasha)

At first we were just cuddling and then I started feeling tired, so I closed my eyes. When she saw that my eyes were closed, she called my name three times. I didn't answered, because I wanted to see what she will do.

"Y/n, y/n, y/n are you asleep? Ok, so I know that you are sleeping, but I still wanted to tell you something, about me, well about us. So, how do I say this, well I really miss the old you. And with that I mean, when it was just you and me, and there were no avengers and no Bucky. Just us. You used to tell me everything and we were always together, but now you just left me alone, while you and Bucky, went somewhere. I don't mean now that you need to ignore him, but I still want to have you to my self. Well you can still hang out with him, but that doesn't mean that you just forget that I exist. Now I just have to find I way to tell you this when you are awake. Ok, now I will stop talking and we need to do this more often, well ofcourse if you are ok with it. Goodnight y/n."

I heard every single word that she just said to me. I feel aweful, because I wasn't even thinking that I was hurting her feelings. And I even think that she is a bit jealous. I will not tell her that I heard everything, because it will make the things between us even more complicated.

We were still cuddling, until I excely feel asleep.

Natasha POV

I just told Y/n what I wanted to tell her very long time ago, but she was asleep. When I stopped talking, I was just looking at her, like how could someone be so beautiful while sleeping. When we first met I thought that she was just some crazy annoying girl, but now, since we escapet the red room, my feelings had changed. I still don't know what they mean, because love was just for the weak. I can't even describe the feeling, which makes it even worst.

She was the only person in my life, that stayed with me and also the only person that I could thrust. Since the day one from the old house in Russia, we were always telling each other everything. She was my family. I could say that I love her, but I never knew what love was, so I don't even know what love is. Well at least I think that what we are we can call love.

I never knew that the person that I most hated in the red room, would become one of my fovourite people.

After looking at her for about 15 minutes, I started feeling tired, so I went to sleep.