YALL I WROTE THIS YESTERDAY BUT DIDNT REALIZE TILL NOW THAT I FORGOT TO PUBLISH IT WTF
it's the next day... me n maddy stayed up the whole night watching movies
PETER PAN IS SO FINE YALL U CANNOT ARGUE WIT ME ON THIS
anyways we were arguing ab if leonardo dicaprio in the 90s was cuter than johnny depp in the 90s
ima stick beside leo🤷🏾♀️
anyways we started walking to fez store cuz i wanted some drinks n it was the closest store to my house
i didn't even object this time which made maddy very suspicious but she didn't say anything
she was texting nate which made me very upset but i wasn't about to scold her for it.. i've wasted my breath about their relationship long enough
i love maddy to death but she needs to get her life together. i don't like seeing my best friend coming home crying every day because nate hit her or they broke up.. it's not ok
anyways enough sad shit we finally reached fez store but guess what.. IT WAS CLOSED UGH
ofc ik where they live so i took matters into my own hands to go check if they were ok
"bitch yk that's not the only reason u wanna go" maddy said
"what other reason would there be? i said quite firmly
i should be an actress yall😍
anyways she jus ignored me n we started walking away from me
"HEY HOE WHY U WALKING AWAY" i yelled chasing after her
we got there n before i could knock ash opened the door
it was a jump scare if i've ever seen one
"bro wtf give a nigga some typa warning before u do that" i said scared half to death
" how tf would i give a warning opening the door" ash said sarcastically
"idk lemme knock first to have some time to prepare"
"why would i jus stand there at the door waiting for u to knock when i know ur right there?"
maddy jus watched us go back n forth with a look of envy
fez came n said "can y'all argue inside the house ur letting the air out"
i agree tho.. for winter it's hot as hell today
i jus walked in n plopped on the couch making myself very comfy ignoring ashtrays look of confusion
"yea.. make ur self at home royalty" ash said
"i alr did but thanks" i said with a smirk
"what brings y'all here anyways" fez said curiously
"yea why are y'all in my house" ash said
"ash stfu" fez said giving ash a side glare
ash jus threw his arms up in defeat and sighed
"anyways royalty want-"
"WE" i said cutting maddy off because i knew she was ab to say sum stupid
"-wanted to come n see if u were alright because we went to the store to get something n it was closed" i said saving myself because maddy is an opp
"oh ok.. well we good we jus didn't wanna go into the store today we needed a break" fez said
"yea so get cho annoying ass outta here im tired of seeing yo ugly ass face" ash said to me specifically
damn..it felt like someone stabbed me right in the heart (or shot in the head like my good friend ashtray😍)
"oh.. ok" was all i said before walking out not turning around
i tried to act like that shit didn't hurt my feelings but it did... a lot
"damn ashtray u couldn't even attempt to be nice??" maddy said before walking out behind me
"ash wtf man" i heard fez say to him but ashtray didn't respond
i jus ignored maddy n kept walking as she caught up to me n tried to talk to me
after a few minutes i finally said
"maybe it's best u go home instead of spending the night tonight"
she didn't object she jus said "ok" kissed my cheek then turned around to walk to her house
i kept walking but once maddy was out of sight tears jus started streaming down my face
not because i supposedly like ash or becuase i thought he was cute
it's because i hate myself already n hearing people jus egg on my insecurities like that hurts.. i hate almost everything about myself so hearing it from someone else makes me feel even worse it's not like i want to hate myself.. everyone is always telling me ur so pretty royalty why do u think that? idk why i think like that but people telling me doesn't mean i have to believe it(me basically writing down how i feel as apart of the story🥹)
i finally got to my house n jus walked into my room,slammed the door shut, plopped in my bed n cried
i definitely wasn't going anywhere near ashtray for a minute
i mean why would i be around someone who finds me annoying
maddy tried to check up on me but eventually i turned my phone on dnd n jus watched movies till i passed out
seeing maddy call me continuously made me realize that nobody else ever calls to check up on me which gave me another thing to cry about
i woke up n i smelled sum good in the kitchennnnn
maddy must've used her key that i gave her and is cooking breakfast
i walked out my room, walked downstairs and to no surprise i saw maddy in the kitchen with the chef hat she loves to wear
"HEY BITCHHHH" maddy yelled before coming to hug me
i love maddy so much she's the closest thing i have to family.. actually no i take that back maddy IS family
we ate breakfast n went up to my room to watch more movies..if y'all haven't guessed watching movies is our thing
i feel like everybody needs a maddy in their life to keep their life together..ik without her id probably be a hot mess
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HEY YALLLLLLLL
how did we feel ab this chapter??
i told y'all i would give drama n that's exactly what i did..
expect way more later in the book because i like keeping the book interesting for y'all 🫶🏾