To the that one person who made me
smile...
An unmatched piece cannot interweaved, getting it tangled and shambles.
This is a work of fiction
If the universe could give me a second chance I would undoubtedly jumped through time just to get back at that moment I could save what we could have.
"You're here again, Shan." My face looked up at my closest girl best friend.
"I-I'm just chilling." I whispered looking down at my ice coffee avoiding eye contact.
"Really..." She sat down in front of my table unconvinced.
I wouldn't know how many times shw cpuld have seen me in this state and I hate that she knew me way too well.
"Loosing people doesn't always mean not gaining something, Stop pushing things that aren't meant to be."
"But isn't it my fault..." I whispered enough for her to hear.
She was silent when her order came. "Gonna get going." She picked her milk tea and left. I waved back at her faking a smile.
"How can such a small mistake change everything so fast?" Asking myself on all those things I've done to you.
"You left just as how fast you came." I added remembering the days we were together.
It all happened so fast and I am overwhelmed. Maybe, no probably for him I was just one of the women he will meet, probably. But it's different for someone like me who rarely meets people. This is a part of myself that I hate. I remember those people who left me but they probably not. It's always hard for me to forget to move on.
My lack of social interaction eating me, messing things up. I always cross the line, but why is it so unfair? That when they crossed that line I let them hurt me, but when I does. I doesn't recieve a second chance.
"What if you could travel back in time would you and why?" I can't help but laugh at those words.
If only he knew. He once shine as the moon, overwhelming my existence. If only he knew, the joy I felt while hanging out with him. If only he knew that ever since the beginning his like a star in my eyes. Unreachable.
"I hate u so much." I bit my lip.
It is scientifically proven that the feeling of love and hate are almost similar. Maybe I'm just confusing these two things together, I always thought.
It's my fault that this happened and I understand your respond. This probably better, the moment you did that it's like time stopped. I deserved it.
You're right I'm poisonous for you. Sorry for that, sorry for liking you.
But this is better, someone already own you. I has these walls up because of that, I don't wanna cross that line. I don't wanna be vulnerable, but I get too carried away.
But I already did cross that line. Sorry. The fact that you have someone else and pushing me to the edge led me in this situation.
I'm probably no one to you anyway.
I don't really hate u, I hate myself for liking you.
