Knowing one's worth was more valuable than earning it from others.
This is not a fiction
If only I could asks you the thousands reasons why you are doing this to me, then I wouldn't have to suffer the consequences.
Have you ever thought what would others feels reflection to your actions. I would guess no.
I looked up at the blue sky of the summer breeze hitting my face. The smell of the flowers of the garden. The peacefulness at this isolated place where no one could hurt me. I like it here.
"Why people are so insensitive?" The first question that came out of my mouth it was full of confusion. Trying to understand the human mind that beyond my reach.
"Why don't they look at the consequences of their action?" I asks again to myself, wondering as I look at the river of my hometown.
I wanna cry, the warm droplets filling up my eyes, trying to hide it from exploding with my emotion getting overwhelmed. I hate it.
"How many times will I get in this situation? I don't wanna get in in this situation again." i have made up my mind and no one can change it already.
It is inevitable. It'll just keep happening, maybe I should distance myself. I can't hang out with these type of people. If only he knew how hard I was trying.
If only he knew how hard it is to just be at that group of circle, for me it was way too overwhelming. Getting close to one person is already hard for me, mostly when I'm in a group of strangers. I can't even say a thing. It was sad, of course you don't know. Cause you don't know me.
"This situation was cliché." I cant helped but to clutch my wrist preventing myself from exploding. Why did it happen to me again? IS it because I am letting people take advantage of me? fist thing I asked myself.
Probably. I laughed dryly trying to get hold of the emotions i don't wanna show.
I should never let anyone take advantage of me like this. Its not my loss it's theirs.
The fact that you didn't even comfort me after that, even dare to talk to me makes you no difference with that person.
Guys are all the same.
They take advantage of the girls that liked them and choose the ones they like only.
How dare you? Acting like kid, wanting attention and care from me when you can't even do the same.
It's unfair, and I know I wasn't being treated right the moment that happened.
'Heh' I should have known from the beginning. I shouldn't let guys do whatever they like, no. I shouldn't have told him my feelings.
Because of that it leaves me venerable and because he knows that he won't care less thinking that I would chase him.
"Why?"
You just added up a reason why I should left you.
Making me look like your other girl in front of other, I'm the one that's looking bad there.
That is so far from myself that I know and that's why it pissed me off cause it makes sense.
If you continue to act like that it was possible that I'll get into a fight because of your action.
"Stupid."
This might be the last and I hope it'll be. Your just like him,
Probably doesn't want to initiate, you prioritize your pride more and most importantly.
I'm insignificant to you, just one of the girls you'll take advantage of.
I can't finally hold it, tears flow from eyes. Escaping from the cage I put it into
Now its free.
