You, Me & Destiny

13. Stains of the past

As the day went by, I was getting more tired.
It was a busy day and I had to attend all those classes. I just couldn't wait to get home and sleep.
All the drama isn't effecting me much now as it did in the morning, I guess I will deal with it when I feel much better.

Nays kept asking me what's going on, but then again I kept avoiding it because I don't want to tell her just for the sake of telling it

There's too much stress, senior year ain't easy. After that encounter at the library, I didn't meet aahil, we did not have any classes together after that.

But we do have math together, and through out he kept looking at me to make sure I'm okay.

Well, I was distracted by that.

And now it's lunch time, two more classes and I will be done for the day.

"Hey" Aahil found me near the window, with my lunch.

Wait, where is nays?

"Hi"

"You, okay?"

"Yeah, alhamdulillah."

"You don't seem to be okay." He said looking at me suspiciously

"I couldn't sleep well maybe that is why."

I quietly take a bite of my sandwich to avoid any more questions and looked away.

He took a seat on the chair opposite to me and started looking outside.

"I have a feeling it's something to do with yesterday."

He gives it a guess.

"Mmm. Maybe."

"You don't have to feel pressurized in any way, I would be really glad if things remained the same between us."

He gives me reassurance.

"Sometimes past is meant to be forgotten and sometimes it gives a reason for you to move forwards."

"You decide, either ways, there's no loss for me."

He winks at me very playfully and goes away.

For some reason his words comforted me, He is still very good at words, he has always been I guess, I don't know what is it exactly that is budging me upon realising that he's my childhood best friend.

I should rather be happy.

Or is it the stains of the pain he had left on my white heart that's troubling me?

It's been so long, I should really just forget about it. We were kids.

I sigh with all the thoughts running through my head.

I need to carry on, I cannot just be thinking about this forever.
He is here and that's a fact, I have to finish my school with him, it's my last year, I cannot risk all my hardwork for a personal issue.

Allah(swt) loves people who forgive, and for that I shall forgive him.

You have to let things go, for yourself, for your peace of mind and around yourself.

The rest of the day went by in a blur and I got home. It was asr time so I quickly made my wudu to offer my salah.

"Allahuakbar"!

There's so much peace in prayer, I sat there staring at the white walls after my salah.
Indeed when your sorrows burden you, and you cannot share it with anyone, it is only Allah(swt)who can understand your pain and will lessen it for you.

I felt so much better and the beautiful peace led me into a deep slumber.

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