Mon rêve c'est la musique

Something else

Hey guys, thanks for reading this, if you wanted another song then here it is.

It's quite obvious that is about my dad when you read it. At first it was really hard to express my feelings around all this stuff but after writing this it became much easier for to talk about it. I'm so glad I had the opportunity to write about this. Now I hope you enjoy reading it as I did when I finished it.

SOMETHING ELSE

A sunny day, may 7
You didn't take us home
And mum didn't know

This wasn't getting better
You don't answer the phone
You were just 44 years old

Mum told us what happened to you
It was a great day until this turned it blue
I was wondering why you had to go
If I only knew the truth at that moment

Some months later I find myself crying every night
It seems I only suffer when there's no light
It feels like there's no movement in the clocks
And I don't wanna live anymore

It's curious how I started making theories and at some point they became true

3 years have passed and I still blame myself
You were dying slowly in a horrible way
And no one realized you needed help

You were just an angel with big dreams
And this world didn't let them be
But I hope you can see now
that you were the father i'll ever need for me

Time passed until this was too big
I thought leading with this would be easy
I hid it until I found you diary

Starting reading it felt a good decision
But it just created a new confusion
I'm scared of what I read
Is it true that was how you felt?

Mum explains it to me the next day
How do I do now to put this feeling away
You thought you were bad for us
How do I explain to you you were an incredible dad once

All you needed was a little bit of hope
Or maybe you just needed more love
And it's heartbreaking for me to think we were your world
but we weren't enough

You looked for happiness in something that makes people sad
You ended with suffering in a way you'll never come back

And I'm mad with myself for thinking once there was nothing wrong in your world

3 years have passed and I still blame myself
You were dying slowly in a horrible way
And no one realized you needed help

You were just an angel with big dreams
And this world didn't let them be
But I hope you can see now
that you were the father i'll ever need for me

And i wish you feel complete now that you're out there
And I wish you feel happy now that you're at heaven
And I wish you are yourself wherever you are

I'll make it for you dad
I'll live for you dad
I'll be happy and I'll enjoy the world just for you dad

Just wait for me in the paradise
I'll be there once I've lived my life
I'll be there once I've found all the answers to my "whys"

4 years have passed and I don't blame myself anymore
You died suffering but now I know whose happy now it's your ghost
The one who always takes care of me until I'm at home

You are just an angel who's up there
Looking at me and feeling proud while I learn
That life seems a disappointment until you know there's always something else

I really hope you felt something reading this and that you enjoyed it.

For the credits:
-Just me :)