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Skz felix/ mental health

Chanlix
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Felix pov

Why wasn't I happy anymore?
Why do I not enjoy dancing anymore?

I had so many questions for myself without answers. I don't know what is going on with me anymore.

No ones pov

Chan and Felix were alone in the dorms as the rest of the members were visiting their families as they had 5 days off but chan and Felix couldn't as flying to and back from Australia with covid going around was a huge risk so they had to stay at their dorms alone.

Chan pov

I was making breakfast for me and Felix, I was making chocolate pancakes, in of felix's favourites. "Hey Felix breakfast is ready" there was no answer so I went up to his room. I knocked on the door first but still nothing so I went in.

I saw Felix curled up in his bed with tear stains down his cheeks. What happened I thought. I slowly sat on the edge of the bed and with one had started running it through his hair. "Hey bubba, I made your favourite chocolate pancakes".

His eyes started slowly opening, I smiled at him. "Hey are you okay, you don't look to good" I asked in a calm and gentle voice "I'm okay". Without telling him I scooped him in my hands and started carrying him to the table.

"What are you doing?" "I'm carrying you to the table". I carefully placed him down on the chair and I went and took my seat opposite him. I payed close attention to him and noticed that he wasn't eating but just moving it around on the plate with his fork while staring at it.

"Hey, are you going to eat!" "Oh I'm just not hungry " I could tell he was lying but I didn't want to push him to answer "okay well how about you go upstairs and take a nap you look exhausted" I recommended. He just nodded in reply.

I was determined to figure out what was wrong with Felix before the other members come back because I know when they do come back Felix will feel more pressure to hide his feelings as he first want to bother us.

Felix POV

I don't know why I feel like this and I don't know how to deal with this but all I know is all I have to do is hide it well enough until the other members come back because then chan will be more distracted with all of us and won't be focusing on just me.

I tried not to think about this anymore right now and closed my eyes before slowly falling asleep.

Chan POV

I carefully opened the door to check on Felix, he was sound asleep it was soo cute. He was snuggled up in his blanket with his mouth a little open and taking small breaths. I quickly took my phone out and took a quick picture before getting right back to what I was originally going to do.

Luckily it doesn't look like he has been crying which I was very thankful for as I hate seeing the people I care about upset and struggling.
Being satisfied enough for right now I decided to go back to finishing some music I was working on.

Time skip

Felix POV

I woke up to this aching feeling in my head and my face felt puffy probably from crying even though that was a while ago.
I got out of bed and got I in the shower and when I was finished I put on an oversized jumper and grey bottoms.I then went to the kitchen to get some water. Luckily the members come back in four days so all I have to do is take it enough to make him forget about me. However it's hard to hide anything from chan.

No ones pov

Chan was currently sitting on the couch watching his favourite k drama and Felix was sitting in his bedroom staring at the ceiling.

Chan POV

I was watching TV when I suddenly got a message from our group chat, turns out that the others all decided to come back early I don't know the reason why but at the moment I really don't care all I know is that this is really Good news and I have to tell Felix.

I know knocked on his door and was I got permission to enter I did. "Hey Felix I have got some exciting news" he looked at me with a confused look "what is it?" "The other members have decided to come back early they will be here tomorrow" I smiled "That's great hyung" " I know right anyways I'll let you get back to whatever you were doing" "thanks bye" I walked out and closed the door behind me.
I went back to watching my show.

Felix POV

This was really great news and a big relief for me because now it will be easier to hide my emotions even though I don't even know what is wrong with me which is an even bigger reason to hide it from the others because I don't  know what is wrong and to make it a big deal would be very selfish of me.

I had eventually ran out of thoughts so I decided to go on my phone and check social media. I decided to go through Twitter and read stuff people have posted about me which I kind of regret doing as all I saw was hate.I mean I did see a few nice comments complementing me but it's hard listening to those when all the complements are outnumbered by hate comments.

I didn't realise I was crying until I saw a tears fall into my phone screen. I wiped it off my screen then wiped them off my face before going downstairs to be with chan as I knew he would be able to comfort me without even knowing it.

No ones pov

Felix sat on the couch and snuggled up to chan "Hey Felix are you alright?" Felix only nodded in reply "You can tell me anything you know I'm always gonna be here for you". Those words were circling in Felix's mind, could he really trust chan with his words? Should he tell him the truth?.

"Felix, are you crying" "n-no" chan gently grabbed his chin and made Felix look at him "what's wrong?" "Nothing" he said in a very shaky voice. "Felix tell me the truth now" Chan said in a much more stern voice "I don't know what's wrong hyung..." he admitted.

"What do you mean baby" "lately I have just been numb and I don't feel happy anymore and I don't know why". Chan pulled Felix in for a hug "hunny Why didn't you say anything" "Because I don't know what is wrong with me do it would be a waste of time to say anything".

"How about we go to the doctors later today and see if we can find anything out". Felix once again agreed.

After going through a lot of tests he was diagnosed with depression. Chan was there with him through out all of it.

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I might do a part 2 to this