Dear Diary... (A Chris Evans story)

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Dear Diary,

This few months I've been pretty lonely. Chris has gone to Washington DC to film the movie. I had been in LA, working as a teacher. Chris and I had been talking every single day in the phone and text each other the whole day.

Every night we video chat with each other. But sometimes I really really miss him. Sometimes I googled him and see what he's up to. That is when I see pictures of Ana and him. He told me that they are just friends and I believe him.

One afternoon I didn't want to stay home so I grabbed my computer and some exams to grade in a local cafe near home. I was sitting, grading paper and drinking coffee when I saw that someone was staring at me. I looked up and saw a man with a cap, sunglasses and a coffee in his hand. He then got up and walked to my table.

"Lucy right?" He asked.

"Yes and you are?" I asked.

"Oh sorry! It's me Sebastian."he whispered his name.

"Oh hey! Please sit down"I said pointing to the chair. He sat down and we talked about my exams, students, and his day. She recommend a really delicious cookie that the cafe sold. He bought me a cookie. Since the cafe was just starting and didn't have customers, I took a picture of the coffee and the cookie and posted in Instagram and Twitter. Since I was known to be Chris Evans best friend and assistant I had a lot of followers so I decided to post to promote the cafe.

Little did I know that Sebastian Stan also posted a picture of a coffee and a cookie which made the fans crazy. Fans started tagging Chris in our post. Fans started a rumor saying that Sebastian and I had a coffee date. Since Sebastian and I posted in the same Cafe, people started to come to the cafe and look for us making us leave early. Sebastian was a little bit nervous and asked me to go with him to some place more quiet. We decided to get some dinner like friends and then he took me home.

"So you live in Chris house?" He asked when he took me home.

"Yeah we live together."I said as he parked the car.

"Well that is cool, I always wanted to live with my best friend. People don't think that you are a couple?" Sebastian asked.

"I don't think so. People think and consider me as Chris Evans little sister. People don't think that Chris Evans could ever be with someone like me. So people don't think that this relationship could be more than friendship." I said.

"Why wouldn't he be with someone like you? You are smart, funny, pretty and really nice. Chris or any guy would be lucky to be your boyfriend. I was wondering if you want to go out, maybe to grab some dinner or breakfast or lunch or whatever you want." Sebastian said.

"I'm honored for you to even consider to go out with me. But kind of seeing someone. But I hope we can still be friends." I said.

"Yeah I would love to be friends" Sebastian said smiling. We have and get out of the car.

Later that day, when I was eating dinner alone with Mika and Dodger. I received a call from Chris.

"Hey baby.."I said happy to hear his voice.

"Hey darling. How was your day?" Chris asked through the phone.

"It was fun. But I truly miss you. When are you coming home?"I asked.

"Soon. I miss you too. So how was your coffee date with Sebastian?" Chris asked a little bit serious.

"Aha! So that's why you called and not video chat. So I wouldn't be seeing you're jealous face."I said smiling a little bit.

He took a breath and repeat it the question again.

"How was your coffee date with Sebastian?" Chris asked again.

"First of all. It wasn't a coffee date. We just happened to run to each other on this little cafe. I just took a picture of a cookie that he recommend and he did too. We posted on Twitter and the fans got crazy" I said.

"Yeah trust me I was tagged in a lot of pictures. Fans asking me about your relationship. I didn't even know you were together or even friends. If someone have said  something to me I would have  known how to react." Chris said and I could feel in his tone that he was upset. That kind of make me upset because Chris never tells me when he's going to eat dinner or lunch with Ana. I have to see them in social media. But I never say anything because he tells me that they're friends and they're working together and because I trust him. I took a breath.

"Chris, you are the least person that should feel jealous of my friendship with Sebastian. You know how much I love you and I will never do anything to hurt your trust. I really hope that you do the same." I said wanting to cry a little.

"WHAT DOES THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?" He said raising his voice.

"Well I don't tell you shit if you are eating dinner with Ana, alone. And I have to find out in social media as well. And trust me those pictures looked way more than just friends. You are actually talking to her ear. What are you talking about? I don't know but I trust you. Do you trust me?" I asked. I've been heard a voice that sounded like Ana. I could tell by her accent, telling Chris that they have to go.

"Look, I have to go. We will talk about this later."he said hanging up. Not giving me a chance to say bye.

"Sure,go. Love you" I whispered to the phone. I then felt so bad. I started crying, my chest started to hurt. I couldn't breathe. I truly miss him, I just wanted him to hug me and tell me that I shouldn't feel jealous. I just wanted him to hug me and take all my insecurities away. I wanted to solve this, I hate fighting with him over silly stuff. I wanted for him to trust me like I trust him. I hate fighting with him over the phone when he's so far away. I wanted him with me.

I took a shower, put on pajamas and cried in my bed. I couldn't sleep so I got you and start writing, maybe I could catch some sleep.

XOXO,

Lucy