I haven't talked to Jay in like 3 weeks and still don't plan on it no matter how many text messages or phone calls he has made. The fuck he want me to do? Sit here and listen to whatever excuse he is about to make? Lmfao i might me an ex-orphan but i'm not no weak dumb bitch. I hope he don't think that either. But enough about him Mariah and I are supposed to be going to this pool party and we went to the mall and i found this fye ass bathing suit that i just can't go fucking wrong in like what. I'm so excited for tomorrow but i'm not going to lie i still don't plan on texting him back but late nights like this be making me miss him like i know it wasn't that long but Jay a good ass person to talk to. Ughhh let me just go to sleep.
♡ ▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄ ︎♡ ︎ the next day i woke up at 10:am because Two decided he wants to come and shoot me with his new splat gun.
"AHHHHH wtf" i screamed raising up.
Two continues to shoot me laughing hard. I rolled over and hid on side of my bed. He just ran out and i'm guessing went into Mariah room to attack her. I have GOT to buy me one because this nigga is not about to just walk around catching everybody lacking and think he not about to get a piece of mind. I got up off the floor and went in my bathroom turning the shower on. I walked back out and grabbed some shorts and one of Two hoodies i stole out his room and laid them on my bed before going back in the bathroom, turning my speaker on, blasting yb, and getting in the shower. I washed up and had my lil concert in the shower before getting out wrapping my towel around me and walking to the stink. I did my face routine and brushed my teeth before putting my hair in a ponytail and walking out sitting on my bed in my towel and watching TikToks on my phone. About 30 mins pasted and i got up and put my clothes on then went downstairs grabbing chips and a gatorade before walking back upstairs and laying down. I dozed off and woke up four hours later from my alarm that i had set. I got up and went in the bathroom. I didn't do much but put my bathing suit on, hair in and bun, put some glasses and lipgloss on. I then walked out and slid on some shoes.
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Once i finished i left out the room and headed to Mariah's to see if she was ready. She had just put her shoes on and grabbed her keys. We walked downstairs told Mrs. Reign we were leaving and headed out. I know what you are thinking. Why am i always only speaking to Mrs. Reign? it's nothing against Mr. Reign if that's what your thinking. It's simply that Mr. Reign left on some business trip literally two days after i came here. Mrs. reign said he'll be gone for 3 months. It doesn't bother me but then again why should it. I just wondered if it bothers Mariah with her dad being gone or if Mrs. Reign ever think anything of it. Idk maybe it's just me overthinking because of my toxic past. He's probably just working nothing sketchy going on just work. I snapped out of my thoughts noticing Mariah was playing Jay's song looking at me with this lil sneaky grin. She's been using his music to tease me lately so i'm used to it and it's funny. We finally arrived at the pool party. We got out the car grabbed out bag with our towels and changing clothes in them and walked into the house and headed to the back were the pool was. I greeted everyone since i knew mostly everyone because they were Mariah friends mixed with a few randoms and other extra guests. We made tiktoks and swam in the pool. One thing i can say is when me and Mariah is together we have some fun. But i just knew that was about to come to an end once i saw jay. He looked at me but didn't say anything. I swam over and sat and the edge of the pool near Mariah.
Some time went passed and Jay didn't say anything to me the whole time. I just figured maybe he just acted one way in messages and had to keep up this nonchalant act in public. I didn't want to keep worrying about him the whole time. So we started taking shots. Maybe that's were i went wrong because we was taking shots of CASAMIGOS. I was drunk but knew exactly what i was doing. I walked over to jay and stood in front of him but before i can say something some female walked infront of us and stood infront of jay. I thought she was some random who just wanted his attention i mean Jay is an upcoming rapper in the city, i just figured she was some groupie so i chuckled until i seen the necklace around her neck that said "Miracle" i pushed her out the way and slapped Jay so hard before walking off and Telling Mariah i was ready to go. We left and on the way home i told Mariah what happened. Once we got home i blocked Jay on everything. I then laid in my and fell asleep. I guess Jay noticed that I blocked him and he couldn't get in touch with me because i was awoken by him shaking me.
"Wtf you doing in my room" i said.
"Foo you need to chill yo ass out" he replied.
"I don't gotta chill shit out" i said.
"You acting mad childish not even letting a nigga explain" he said nonchalantly.
"childish? i don't have to hear you explain shit"
"So you just going to dry be mad over shit that you don't even know the whole story to"
"Mad? your not my nigga so i'm not trippin"
he chuckled.
"Not yo nigga? you gone pull that card on me" he said.
i nodded.
Jay and i argued some more but he just ended up leaving and i went back to sleep.
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i woke up the next morning and checked my phone.
𝙐𝙣𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙉𝙪𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧
I just want you to know i would never make you look dumb nor do anything to even play you. Miracle is my ex. I was not going to go see her I promise princess. I posted you in my cfs and she seen it and i always give the person i'm on a date with my phone because i don't have shit to hide and i want you to have my full attention and she know that so that's why she texted that. and at the party as soon as you turned away me and her were arguing about it.
* end of text convo*
I rubbed my eyes while reading it and something in the back of my mind kept saying don't do it don't do it. But shit i did it.
𝙅𝙖𝙮𝙙𝙚𝙣💕
take me to get seafood and all is forgiven .
😂😂, bet
Yes i know maybe i shouldn't have but i unblocked him off everything. Maybe he was telling the truth. Besides he's not my nigga so technically he wasn't cheating on me or anything. I was just overreacting i do that a lot. So yes i'm giving him another chance besides he can't control his ex. I got up and picked out something to wear before getting dressed because Jay was on his way. When he got here we left i didn't speak to Mrs. Reign because she left early today to run errands. I walked out and hoped in the car Jay smiled at me and i smiled back. I was going to just pretend like nothing happened.
When we got to the seafood place Jay and i ate and talked and this time we went without any problems. Jay drove me home and I gave him a kiss before going in the house.
