Meredith Grey GxG- oneshots

Aren't You Mad?

Relationship: dating for a few months but going threw a hard time in the relationship
Age: a few years younger than Meredith
Plot gist: you screw up during surgery and make a fool of Meredith.
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"hey, Meredith" you greeted when your girlfriend approached you

the two of you have done nothing but fight and have sex for the past month so you were caught off guard when she tried to have a civil conversation with you

"hey listen, that guy from John Hopkins is coming over this afternoon to watch one of my residents perform a Proctocolectomy... I think you're the only one I can trust with this," she said simply

you were caught off guard, you excepted the offer of course. Still, a Proctocolectomy is one of the most challenging surgical procedures you've only seen one other person perform it.

Ellis Grey.

"This is a big day for me so don't choke"

all you could do is nod your head. you were stunned. you knew if you fucked this sup this could mean the end of your relationship with Meredith, and possibly the end of your career at SGMW.

you spent all the time before the scheduled surgy watching the tapes of Ellis performing the surgy over 15 years ago and researching further.

"show time" Meredith popped her head into the room

you followed her into the conference room where she introduced you to the residents and intendings that had come from John Hopkins to watch you perform the surgy today.

"Meredith.. I want to thank you. I know that our relationship has gotten-" she cut you off as the two of you were scrubbing in

"y/n.. please not now" she focused on foaming CGH she was scrubbing her hands with

"I just appreciate the opportunity that's all" 

"just dont make me regret my decision" she stated before walking into the OR

you only sighed as you scrubbed your hands harder. she was so hard to get through to.

and in the end, she did regret her decision. you failed miserably. no matter how hard you studied it wouldn't have mattered because you would have never been successful. for that Meredith thought she was partial to blame.

she didn't tell you till the day of the surgery and she had never even performed that surgery herself.

the patent was on blood thinners which made your job hard. eventually he started losing too much blood and Meredith had to take over

"Mer I'm so sorry" you whispered as she was stitching the patent up

you watched as Meredith's eyes drifted up to the gallery where the men who came were packing up their stuff and leaving

"just leave. get the fuck out" she looked back down at her steady hands

you did as you were told not wanting to make things worse

20 minutes later you got a page from Meredith

with the same set of numbers she used to get you into an on-call room for sex after a particularly rough surgery. 

you made your way to the familiar on-call room of Meredith's choice and felt yourself burst into tears as soon as you saw her disappointed face sitting on the small cot of a bed

"I'm sorry. I fucked up Mer" you sobbed into your hands as the door closed behind you

"y/n stop.. that was too much for me to ask from you. I'm sorry I put you in that position" you felt her frail yet strong arms wrap tightly around your shaking frame

you couldn't believe it, she was hugging you. this was the first time she touched you, in a way that wasn't sexual, in weeks

and she was apologizing, willingly.

"Wait you're not mad" you pulled away from her shoulder slightly just enough for you to make eye contact with her

"of course I'm mad" she stated truthfully although her tone of voice was misleading, it was warm and soft not cold and hard

"Then why are you-" you tried

"No matter what I will always help you calm down"

that was all she said before she pulled you back into her embrace continuing to soothe you.