sentiments

first strike

Chapter 5

We're is Emily?..Good morning daddy...Good morning Olivia....were is Emily" dad asked with so much inpatient "...she is having her bath"olivia replied with so much worry".....take it easy on her Adams,am sure it was a mistaken"mum added,trying to calm dad a little"....stop covering for her rose ,stop doing that!!!she turned 25 yesterday,am sure she can speak for her self.
   Emily!!!Emilia!!!..oh fuck what did I do now!!!"I panicked "a minute dad I Need to put on something....Good morning dad,you called me...you want to ruin my business down,is that what you want to do Emilia,just one day,just one day I asked you to take records of how many wines,they are bringing in,you messed everything up,you keep disappointing me Emily!!!!your sister Mia,can never make this kind of mistakes,never!!!you sister Mia,is a better option than you are!!I thought by now you would have put,your stupid act together...mtcheww..with that being said he stormed out of the door to work.
   Hey Emily,mum was trying to give dad's action,a level ground,look am sure you dad,didn't mean any of those words he said to you,you know exactly how your dad gets,when he is angry,you should have told Mia to help you out....mummy stop it!!stop it please!!I beg you...that is your problem Emily,you don't listen,you don't want to learn,every time you act like you know it all!!!,look your dad wasn't supposed to talk to you that way,but....am fine mummy "I interrupted"I really understand daddy,and I apologise,I just want to go dress up,me and Olivia are going to the library...I gave her a quick smile,and started working towards my room.
    The moment I started working towards my room,Olivia followed me closely...Olivia look you can go finish up what you were doing,I really do not plan hurting or killing my self today,I just want to dress up so we can go to the library...I thought we were going to the hotel today" Olivia questioned "..its obvious he wouldn't want me there,please go carry on with your breakfast;so we can catch a bus,remember I don't have a car for now....Emilia what is your strength?I was taken aback by Olivias question..hmm strength you say?"I asked back"...yes!!what is your strength?what makes you feel you have to keep going with a smile on your face?....Well liv we both no,this thing that happened today was clearly my fault....oh shut up Emily"olivia shouted at me",you and Mia were together,you both were incharge of the wine supplies,i could even remember, Mia made her self the head,she was the one counting,you were merely writing down the figures she was telling you...I should have atleast cross checked everything before..oh shut it Emily"olivia said angrily"look girl they are at fault,not you,no one deserves to here this types of words never,so don't you dare blame yourself ever again,your so strong Emily,I sometimes envy your strength,I see you sometimes look at the mirror and do all those happy dance,and I wonder what inspires you?what keeps you going....maybe because I feel I have to get the same recognition;as my other siblings,or maybe because i feel I need to be useful to my family,...I don't think so Emilia!!!!try looking deeper,and tell me what it is,and I said slowly the fear of being ordinary,the fear of being seen as a sad child,the fear of not standing out for something Olivia,that's it Olivia,I said with a smile,Now can you go eat you breakfast!!!!.