sentiments

back at it

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   Getting home,looking at my self in the mirror,I should have known or perhaps even a small thought should have crossed my mind;that I was pushing my luck too far,thinking I was going to do better,today I oven have hopes of maybe being truly happy,feel proud of my self,be as confidence and strong as Olivia made me belive,yes I know every one is trying to help me..yes now am in my comfort zone,back in my room,standing in front of a mirror,am removing the pullover,the pants,the makeup and am taking a moment to look at my body,my imperfections,then the memories of the stares and praises I received today,comes back to me,hahaha obviously I don't see my self believing any of it,laughing so loud at my own reflection...guyz I have never been on this kind if pains before,this level Is different,I am like a beautiful bag ,the outside is pure perfection,but when you zip it open you will find all manners of dirty inside.
   Layed down on my bed,I felt really bad for my self,I hated being in this position,but then I remembered the boy Olivia talked about in the bus,the guy that wanted to eat me whole,and then my dirty mind went straight to imagine the boy actually eating up,and did it make me horny,yes so so horny,i have never been confidence enough to have real sex ,it never gets past me ducking them off,after turning them on and then chicken away from having sex,then I would feel guilty and suck them off,all this thought only made me hornier"if there is any word like that"i took out my phone,just want to read maybe a novel but yes you guessed right pornhub,okay fine I would just watch 2 videos,just 2...15 minutes  in and I am dripping wet,gradually my hands started moving slowly towards my panties,oh fuck!!!I started stimulating my clits ,little by little  oh fucking hell!!!yas,I kept increasing my pace,till I didn't have control of my fingers again;oh fucking hell!!I immediately thrust two of my fingers in my pussy,while using the big thumb to stimulate my clit,I was so close when I heard mia's room door,but I can't stop now,I kept on going till oh fuck!!!till came,all over my shit,fuck that was a good one!!!...the moment I came down my high horse,oh heavens what did I just do,oh God I promised I wouldn't do this again...yes I heard mia's room door oh fuck!!!are you sure ,she didn't see me.