sentiments

pains!!

Chapter 10
Walking towards her door,felt like the longest walk I ever took,but still yet I wish it was longer,knock, knock...come in "came my dad's replies"okay if I wasn't fucked before now am definitely sure I am really fucked...I slowly opened the door,and the first person I locked eyes with was Mia,entering the room,I realised every body was sitted already...Emily sit down"mum instructed,and I sat closet to Oscar...Mia why "dad looked so broken"tell me why,tell me Mia,why have you decided to ruin your self,Mia what have I not provided for,I work my self up to sponsor you to the best educations,like I sponsor all your activities,your vacation,you expensive designer bags and clothes!!!I even registered you in a brilliant business class,so you can learn values,wow!!!!this is
all I get this is the thank you dad I get,....seeing my dad this way really hurts...dad please,stop it's going to be fine...don't you dare interupt me Emily!!!"dad fired back at me,don't you sit there and act like a Saint,you kept it to your self all this while because you were encouraging the act,really what kind of daughters do I have!!!Mia is into drugs,heaven knows if she is not an addict already!!!while Emily is so incapable of anything,not even the least smart,as lazy as the word lazy goes,...stop it dad Emily is having a panick attack "Oscar yield"mum rushed towards me...Emily breath,breath baby,your fine my darling....Am so sorry dad and mum for being a big disappointment to you,and mum held my face it's fine my love,you are not a disappointment okay...I need air mum,I want to go to my room...ofcourse go on
my dear....I immediately ran to my room,I was so greatful Olivia wasn't inside,I immediately locked the door,took out my blade I want to end it all,yes I am at fault,if only I had told my parents,this wouldn't had have happened,I blame my self for everything...I took the blade,started open up all my scars on my thigh again,atleast I am not hurting anyone this time but my self,I slit different part of my hands,before I could bring the blade down to my wrist,Olivia opened the toilet door...Oh my God!!!Emily No No No,she hit the blade out of my hands,without minding being cut,Emily please you can't keep doing this to yourself "she was crying so bad"emily I have to talk to your family about this Emily,killing yourself do you think it solves anything,no Emily no!!it fucking leaves me,us in pains Emilia,and a hole in our hearts Emily....come with me Emily...No
Olivia...fucking come with me,I am not going to tell anyone tonight,i just want to go gey the first aid box,you bleeding every were....Olivia just go get it from the hall...No sweetheart I can't leave you a second my yourself,no debates....I stood up to follow her,funny enough I felt no pains at all in my body,but my heart was so painful it hurts too much,that I felt weak...after getting the first aid kit,we came back inside the room,Now sit ,I said sit back Emily let me see your thighs,I am fine Olivia drop the first aid box I don't need it.
   Okay guys am sure you know this horrible sence,well that is how I got here