alone

chapter five

"but why? i'm honestly not special," i replied with tears still coming to my eyes.
"but that's the thing. you are in my eyes. no matter what anyone else says. you mean the world and more to me. you think i'm only there for you? you've been the one there for me when i couldn't get out of bed because my previous girlfriends hurt me so bad. i would cry my eyes out and you started crying with me. if that doesn't show how close we are and how much we mean to each other, i'm not exactly sure what will. you're my other half. my everything," john said with small tears coming to his eyes and his voice beginning to crack a little.
he looked over at me and i looked into his eyes. he grabbed my jaw ever so slightly and kissed me. sparks flew through every inch of my body. it felt magical. it felt so good. but why? did i have feelings for him? i thought we were only friends. every inch of my body was telling me i didn't want him, except my heart. my heart was telling me that i needed to be with him. that he was the one i was meant to be with. but why? i thought we were only friends. sure, he meant the world to me, but in a friend way. or was it a love way? mixed emotions led to deep thoughts. to the point of where i just started crying.
"why are you crying, beautiful?" john asked.
"stop. just stop. you're too nice to me. this is all just a dream. you mean the world to me but i can't mean this much to you. it's almost impossible. i've always been a nobody. that's how it should stay." i said crying even more, putting my head on john's chest.
"but babygirl, you don't see, i'm not like everyone else," he said putting his head down on mine.