maybe he didn't know what was going on at the moment but soon he would figure it all out. figure everything out. maybe even more than i knew myself. i'm scared but that doesn't distract my emotions. it makes them worse. i started shaking and couldn't help it. i couldn't say simple words because my teeth were clenched together. i cried uncontrollably. it was happening again. another one of my anxiety attacks. i couldn't bare for john to see me this way. i felt like i was such a wimp. he held me tighter and then picked me up. he brought me back to his bed and covered himself and i in his comforter. still shaking, i curled up to him. i was scared. i didn't know what to do. what am i fighting? what is making me so upset all the time. constantly fighting with my emotions. in a always losing battle with my emotions. a battle that i was never able to win. a battle that i don't think i'll ever win.
john rubbed my head and held back my hair. he lightly kissed my forehead. he held me in his arms and brushed my hair out of my face.
"babygirl, please forever know that you don't need to be scared around me. i will be with you here forever. i can promise you that. i'm not going anywhere. i'll be here forever."
the same word repeated constantly in my head. 'forever'. i love him so much. words can't explain. he just does the world for me. he doesn't even realize it either. he thinks he's only doing the minimum but that isn't the case at all. he does all that i can ever ask for. he's my angel. my savior. if only he would realize it.
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Teen Fictionhow could someone be so lonely? why does depression hurt so bad? sometimes the brighter side of things isn't what you want. sometimes, there is no brighter side. you just gotta stick for yourself and fight for your life. or will you just give up?
