Matapos na maipalit ang tseke ay mabilis akong nagtungo sa hospital
Ito ang dahilan kung bakit kailangan ko ng pera I know what I did was unforgivable but I have no choice I need to save my only family coz he's the only person that I have
"Ms. Selerio" the doctor called me and I immediately went to him
"How's my brother Doc?" I asked him
Ngumiti siya sa akin ng malungkot na agad kong ikinabahala
"He's getting weaker day by day and I'm afraid to say this but I think you need to prepare yourself for the worst" naluha akosa sinabi niya hindi maaari!
"But Doc we can still do the surgery right? May pag-asa pa po. Don't worry about the money makakabayad po kami"
He shook his head and speak
" Hindi niya kakayanin ang surgery. If we still push it baka mabilis siyang bawiin sa iyo. Ang maipapayo ko lang ngayon ay take advantage of the time that he's here we never know how much time he's left"
This is the reason why I need the money so much that I would trade everything I have for it. My brother is sick and he has a severe leukemia. Kung may sapat sana akong pera noon pa ay baka naagapan ang sakit niya at hindi na lumala pa.
My heart would always bleed for him because he's too young to suffer like this. At this age dapat masaya siya sa buhay niya at nagagawa ang mga gusto niya hindi ganito
Iniwan na kami ng mga magulang namin 2 years ago. Dahil sa isang aksidente ay nawala sila sa amin at ang isipin na bilang na rin ang mga araw niya ay nagpapahina at nagpapalungkot sa akin
I don't wanna be left alone anymore. I was alone back then lurking in the streets asking for strangers to have pity on me so they can share their food and give it to me. Until the day that they found me and they gave me a home and a warm family. Minahal nila ako at tinanggap kahit hindi nila ako kaano-ano kaya naramdaman kong hindi na ako mag-isa pero bakit babawiin naman sa akin?
Am I not allowed to be happy? All my life I endured my cruel fate. I was bullied and always framed to the mistakes I never did at the orphanage kaya tumakas ako akala ko maiiwasan ko na yun pero mas malala ang naging buhay ko sa kalsada tapos heto na naman? Kung kelan maayos na ang lahat may problema na naman? Bakit ba parati akong pinapahirapan ng tadhana?
I stared at my brother his weak body is getting thinner each day. Pati ang maputla niyang balat ay tila lalong namutla ngayon
I held his hands and place it to my cheeks
"Gian wag mong iwan si Ate ha? Alam kong nahihirapan ka na pero huwag muna ngayon please I need you" my voice broke and I held his hands tighter
Pinigilan kong huwag makagawa ng ingay pero kumakawala sa bibig ko ang hikbi
It's been always like this iiyak na lang ako kapag wala akong magawa and that feels so bad. Parati silang nandiyan para sa akin pero hindi ko man lang matulungan sila kaya ang hinihiling ko huwag muna siyang bawiin sa akin dahil hindi ko pa nasusuklian ang kabutihan na ginawa nila sa akin and that makes me feel so guilty and worthless. Ayoko nito. Gusto kong makatulong.
Gusto kong may magawa para sa kanila
Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at inayos ang sarili nang maramdamang magigising na siya
A smile rose in my lips to greet him even though it hurts I need to act brave and strong so he won't be worried
"A-Ate" hinaplos ko ang pisngi niya
His frail voice pierced my heart but I'm able to discard it and pretend like I was okay
"Kumusta? Ayos ka lang? Are you hungry? Tubig? Gusto mo ng tubig?" I asked him eagerly.
Tumango siya kaya tumayo ako at binigyan siya ng tubig
I hold the glass of water and put the straw on his mouth
"Gusto mong kumain?" He shook his head
as he continued to sip on the straw
"Ayos na ako Ate" he said weakly when he was done nilagay ko na sa bedside table ang baso
Umupo ako sa tabi niya at tiningnan siya
"Huwag mo munang iwan si Ate ha?"
I begged him
Ngumiti siya ng malungkot sa akin that hinawakan ang kamay ko
"Hanggang kaya ko pa Ate lalaban ako para sa'yo"
It aches me more knowing that he's enduring because of me
"Pero Ate magpapakatatag ka ha? Alam kong malalampasan mo 'to kung darating man ang oras na aalis na ako sana pagbigyan mo ako" tumango ako kahit masakit wala na din namang pag-asang gumaling siya
Hindi pa ako handang mawala siya pero wala akong choice kundi tanggapin
But then he left me too at kahit gusto kong magluksa hindi ko na magawa dahil sa panibagong pagsubok na kakaharapin ko
BINABASA MO ANG
Ruthless' Regrets
RomanceRagnar Alaric Aranzamendez Ashanti Georgienne Ronquillo Disclaimer: I do not own the photo used in the book cover. Credits to the rightful owner
