Poems by a depressed transmasc

Yellow

When I first met you it was yellow
Sunny bright and happy
The clouds had disappeared
The rain had stopped
I had finally found somebody
That I could see myself loving
Our first date was yellow
You looked so beautiful
And I found myself falling hard
When I texted you I saw yellow
It was like I'd met someone who knew me
You understood me
When you first said I love you back
It was yellow
And it was so warm
I began to fall for you more
Everywhere I went with you it was yellow
I felt like I had spent time with the sun
Warm and inviting, I let you in
I let you learn the broken parts first
When I knew I was in love
I was drowned in yellow
But the universe has decided
That I'm not allowed yellow
The universe has decided
I am only fit for grey
So that is why the universe
Stopped sending you my way
And while I was seeing yellow
In all of its pristine glory
You were seeing something
Much, much less adoring
Now my yellow is gone
You took that when you left
Replaced with charcoal grey
And my heart was frozen in my chest