That day Dazai was more gloomy than ever, plunged into agony disguised as smiles and jokes full of acid humor, the agency came across the news: Dazai and his boyfriend broke up.
Perhaps melancholy would be the most accurate way to describe the atmosphere of that day, Atsushi could feel it.
Everyone tried to act normal, but Dazai's sadness was not something that could be fought and surrendered to the inevitable, Atsushi simply limited himself to being an observer of the events that would happen next.
A week after their breakup, Dazai announced that he would take a period of "mourning" which Kunikida refused, but it mattered little to Dazai that he left for abroad that afternoon.
And Atsushi never heard from Dazai again.
- You love Me?
— It seems that today you are more needy Dazai kun. "You... just answer."
- Yes I love you.
— I love...
— No, I don't love you Dazai kun, wanting and loving are different things, you should know the difference, after everything you've experienced.
- Don't talk about him.
- It still hurts?
— That's why I came here, if it didn't hurt, I'd be with someone better. "Tell me something Dazai kun, you really... Do you want to forget?" Several months had passed since Dazai went abroad, until one day he returned to the Agency. Everything seemed to be in order, he seemed animated, just like the Dazai that Atsushi remembered, even to that incident, in which Dazai and Atsushi were back from a mission.
Dazai-san, are you really alright? "Atsushi kun cares so much about me," Dazai answered in a mocking tone.
— It's just... you seemed to be very sad since the breakup and well I, everyone at the agency is worried...
— Atsushi kun, what are you talking about? What break? — — Like what breakup... Wait Dazai san, this means that you still have a boyfriend?
— Yes —
What a joy!!! That's why it took you so long to come back, you were fixing things with him
— That's right Atsushi kun, I spent a few months on my honeymoon
— Wow, Chuuya san must be happy too
— Dazai stopped suddenly just at the entrance of the agency, turning to Atsushi in surprise.
- Who? Dazai asked.
-What? — Atsushi replied equally surprised
— Atsushi kun, are you rude or just idiotic...
— What?! —
— That, with the knowledge you have of my relationship, it's stupid that you were wrong —
— Wrong?! -
- Of course! My boyfriend is Fyodor —
— wooowwww! -
- What? -
-Dazai-san became Fyodor-san's boyfriend? How did that happen?
— Atsushi kun we already had this conversation...
— No! noooooooo! Dazai san we were talking about Chuuya san
— Who? —
— Dazai san please stop playing
— Atsushi kun, I can swear to you on my honor as a suicide bomber, that I have no idea what you're saying or who you're talking about
— I understand... You're still angry with Chuuya san and for you ignore that and now you go out with your enemy yes... yes, Dazai san, you shouldn't do that
— Who is Chuuya? —
Atsushi froze, Dazai asked with genuine curiosity and without any hint of rancor or mischief, it was an honest question.
— Dazai san, Atsushi sighed and with panic in his voice he continued
— Are you sure you don't know who Chuuya san is? —
— It's the first time I hear that name.
~I can't change who I am~
~Let go of your guilt~
