ALL SAID AND DONE

Goodbye Letter

So this is it....
I finally found out the truth
Never expected it from you! ! !
I thought you were my friend....
But you weren't....
You were just using me just like you used all the other people...
For your own selfish reasons...
I always thought those people who left your friendship were wrong! !
But no, what I thought was wrong! !
I'm never gonna forgive you...
Nor will others! !
Because you are a person of betrayal...
No one can ever trust you...
You betrayed once... so you can betray again...
One day everyone will find the truth...
And you will be all alone...
Begging for forgiveness...
Then you will realize your behavior! !
N regret
All you have done...
And come apologizing back...
But I know you
You are as stubborn as ever...
And you will never do that...
Because there is one thing you are good at And That is BETRAYAL.
I don't need your attention
Don't need it to stay alive
All I need right now is Myself
Me and my f*ucking knife
So shut up and leave me
Please, just go away
I don't need all this bullshit
Maybe another day
You can't help me now
I have to do this on my own
Go listen to your own shit
I beg you, just leave me alone!
Give me a moment for myself
I need to safe my life
It will all be okay
Don't worry about that knife
Won't kill myself this evening
Just some scratches which I need
I know you won't understand
But on the inside I allready bleed
You've allready accepted my wounded inside
So please accept the outside too
I know it isn't a great solution
But it's the best thing I can do
The injury I'll cause
Won't be as bad as the ones inside
But you won't see them
They're much easier to hide
Someday, I won't need it
By knowing other ways to express
But for now I need it
It's the only way to control this painfull mess!
I used to listen,
when you said you would always be there.
I sit and think about all the times we had together, and how I thought
I used to love you, when you used to care.
I'd last through any weather.
but when the our storm came you
left at the first sight of rain, leaving me here to deal with all this pain.
I sat there crying, thinking what did I do wrong, I looked to my fríєnd who said (stay strong).
so I wiped my tears and begin anew, new me, new life, and happiness without you.
someday you'll miss me, but it will be too late for us to be.
you didn't know what you were missing but now you do, calling me crying saying baby I love you.
I love you too that's why I'm letting you go, I'm a hell of a good woman it's too bad it took you this long to know.
what we had is in the past, it's a reason we didn't last.
but whenever you get discouraged about why we're through, just look in the mirror
because it's all on you...
I hope next time you learn from your mistakes, and when that girl needs you do whatever it takes.
I know I wasn't perfect,
But I gave you all I had,
And if we were so deep in love,
Why does it feel so bad?
I still have a lot of questions,
And I still wonder why,
always remember this, I love you but I love me more.
But now all I can do is say,
I love you and goodbye