ALL SAID AND DONE

The Final GoodBye

Sometimes you think a person will be everything you ever dreamed of. A person can portray to the be the person you waited for all your life. They can make you feel loved, safe, and protected. But everyone has their own agenda. They can say they love you and wouldn't let a single soul hurt you when in the end, it's them who hurt you. The feeling of being loved and cherished can all be one big lie to make them feel better.

Tiny

Waking up I felt so damn numb about everything. Up until yesterday I never regretted marrying this girl but now I regret marrying her and allowing her to be apart of my child's life. Now it may sound crazy that I say that but for her to be seeing this girl who had disrespected my daughter and me and has done things and said things Micki Supposedly said to her. Which up until now I never questioned but how could I not now. I could never be with a person who allows an outsider to talk about my child that's just dead wrong. I was thinking of calling her and going to meet with her to talk so I can be finally done. But the truth is no matter what hurting her was the last thing I wanted but it was clear she didn't care. So I decided to send her a text because I honestly thought things would get out of hand.

*Text To Micki*

Well I heard Of all the things you've been doing and one thing stood out to me and it's that you've been dating the girl from the night before the wedding. And I will say this I'm not hurt you me I'm hurt for our daughter you haven't called talked to or seen her in weeks. But you make time for any and every else except her. And now I find out your dating the girl who disrespected my daughter and me. I never asked you to take on the responsibility of being a parent it was all you and you promised you'd never ALLOW ANYONE TO EVER DISRESPECT HER OR HURT HER. But your with someone who has on multiple occasions but how can I be mad at her when you allowed it and a person will only do what you allow them too. But it's fine it's your life but she won't be apart of my child's life at all. Coming from a childhood and my dad not being around all the nights I cried for him. All the times I questioned whether he loved me or not to my mama is the same things Mariah is going threw. I watch her and deal with it first hand while your living your life. But I won't lie to her and over made my share of mistakes as a mother and I own up to that. I'm not a perfect parent but who is but I can grantee that I will be. But what I won't allow is for my daughter to question whether you love her or not. Because both of us both knows what that can do to a child growing up & she won't go threw that. I don't ask you for anything when it comes to her because I never wanted you to feel obligated to take care of my child. You think this is easy but it's not because I'll have to answer all her questions and like always you won't be there. As for me it's easy to say goodbye to you forever because you've shown that when it comes to me you never gave a fuck and when it comes to my child she's not your first priority and as a parent she should be. And yet your with someone who could never be apart of my child's life so you can have that life. Anybody would feel blessed and lucky to have her she sees no wrong in you only the good. But questions are never ending and it hurts to watch her hurt behind someone like you. I hate you for the pain this will bring her. I hate that she trust you and loves you and at times you don't care. And even after the pain and hurt from my past and childhood and the pain and hurt from your past and your child hood. The one thing you did was this and that's putting her threw the same things out fathers put us threw and did to us. The feeling she will have growing up is the same feeling we both endured as children. PROMISES MEAN NOTHING!!!! The parent you never wanted to be you are and the sad part is you don't even see it. All things are clear and she now will know what it feel like to have a person in her heart and cry for a person who won't be there. So this is MY FINAL GOODBYE!!! I won't be contacting you at all about anything no birthday's, school, trips, new things she's doing, nothing at all. I truly wish you the best in your life but Mariah and I won't be apart of it anymore. You won't have a way to contact either of us. New number, new home, new school. But I will keep you in my prayers and I pray that when you start this family with her that your planning that you don't make the same mistakes like you did with Mariah. Oh you thought I didn't know well I do the streets talk and everything always comes to the light. Enjoy your life MICKI WALKER GOODBYE!!!!!