ALL SAID AND DONE

Letting It All Out

Letting it all out

Micki
So it had been a month and Tiny stubborn ass finally decided to meet with me so we could finally talk about things. Now I know what y'all thinking "how Tf can I call her stubborn and I'm the one that fucked up" it's easy because I'm making a effort to save this marriage and she's not budging at all. I was thinking picking her up for dinner and going out but she had other plans. She decided that she would come to the house that was once ours that we shared. But since the break up she moved out which was stupid cause I had every intention on her coming home. But anyway I picked Mariah up from school and took her to Asia's house because her and Tiny still weren't speaking. After I hit the grocery store so I could make us dinner and grab a bottle of wine as well. Once I did all the running around I went home and cleaned because I've been being lazy and Tiny would flip if she seen my uniforms and shit all around. I had my phone connected to my speakers jamming cleaning up when a message came threw.

Message From Tiny* Micki it's 7 I will be at the house by 8 so make sure your home or there won't be a conversation because I don't plan on waiting*

Man this girl drives me crazy acting as if she's just so hard when she's as soft and sensitive as a teddy bear.. LoL!!! Crazy part was she was acting as if she dont miss me when I know she misses me just as much as I miss her.. I didn't even text her back I just went and got in the shower.

Tiny
So I decided to finally sit down with this girl but I was slowly wondering if I was actually ready to. Don't get me wrong she's my wife and all but she's hurt me more then once and I feel betrayed and I don't think I can go back again. But I'm not sure what tonight holds but I do know that I'm going to try and get threw this conversation without losing my mind. Riding to house was mind blowing because I had a very uncomfortable feeling in my stomach and I couldn't shake it. I needed to talk to somebody who would help relax my nerves but no one at all came to mind since I wasn't speaking to Asia. Which I needed to call her and set something up so we could talk as well. I missed her crazy ass but I was really hurt and mad at all but I wanted to let it all out and move forward. Pulling up to the house I could tell Micki had every light in the house as always smh. I walked up to the door and rung the bell because I didn't have my keys or I would've walked right in without thinking twice.

Micki - Tiny you could have just used your key crazy girl

Tiny - I don't have them smart ass *i said slapping her upside her head*

Micki - aye now keep your hands off me unless it's in a good way lol

Tiny - yeah you wish whatever

Micki - you know you miss daddy girl quit playing tough

Tiny - *i couldn't help but blush or laugh I did miss her but I was t even tryna go there* anyway what's for dinner?

Micki - Steak Rice&Gravy & Broccoli your favorite

Tiny - smells good I see you... Lol

Micki - as always lets have a glass of wine and have dinner. *sitting at the table with my wife felt amazing I couldn't help but smile. She noticed me starring a few times and turned her head she wasn't trying to make any eye contact with me at all. But I wasn't giving up without a fight*

Tiny - dinner was amazing I almost forgot you can cook..

Micki - I learned from you how you forget lol

Tiny - right lets go in the living room and talk it's getting late

Micki - you could just stay here tonight tiny it's not a big deal.

Tiny - ummmm no I don't think so. But I'm listening whenever your ready to talk.

Micki
Well Babe let me start by saying I apologize for hurting you and not being honest with you. I should have told you what was going on due to the circumstances of the situation. I need you to know that nothing happened that day between me and that girl at all. I went because I needed answers from that day I needed to close that chapter of my life completely. I'm not justifying it at all I'm just trying to explain it to you. I see. Asia and Shamar and I begged Asia not to tell you I told her I was going to tell you myself I told her I needed to tell you what was going on. She wasn't covering for me in fact she came over and said something when she seen me with that girl. I want you to come home I miss having you home everyday I miss waking up to you and rolling over knowing your on the other side of the bed. I miss that pretty smile of yours the way you blush when I call you beautiful. I just wanna work on fixing this I don't care how long it takes I'm not going anywhere and I don't want you to go anywhere. I guess that's all I can say baby but I love you and I want this to work not end..

Tiny
     Micki you know I love you with all my heart but I don't know if I can ever trust you again. You have no idea what it's like to be put threw something like this with the person you love more than life it's self. I've tried so hard to understand, but I can't. There is nothing else left in my hands!!  We weren't meant to be right now at this moment maybe we moved to fast. I was ready to love and commit you wanted to have fun but you never said a word you just did what you wanted hoping I'd never find out. I tried my hard to keep this family together even after all the things you did. All the things you thought i had no idea what was going on when I knew what was going on but I hoped you'd change and learn to love me the way I loved you. But you never did you I feel like you pretended to. I never wanted this to happen But it looks like there is no other way! Our paths are different and maybe one day they can meet again and things will be different. One thing i would like to say i loved you with everything in me if I had to give my last breath for you to live I would have. You meant everything to me. But now I feel played, deceived, betrayed and hurt. Right now I just want to focus on me getting better I wanna focus on loving me again because I gave you all the love I had and now I have to give all that love to myself and realize my worth.

Micki - Tiny I am so sorry I never meant to hurt you I swear I really didn't.

Tiny - I can't believe that because you knew it would hurt me and you still did it. But I forgive you and I love you with all my heart but right now we just aren't meant to be.

Micki - But Tiny....

Tiny - I love you Micki I have to go..
I got up and left without looking back because I couldn't. I was fighting back the tears in my eyes just saying what I needed to say. I know it might sound crazy but Micki has done a lot of things I looked pass things have been said that I looked pass because of the love I have for this girl but I think it's time for Micki to focus on Micki for a little bit and it's time for me to focus on me and Mariah. Plus I'm thinking about having another child which is going to be crazy enough.. *ssshhhhh* that's our little secret. I guess that's what you call letting it all out. Now I need to send Asia a text so I can clear the air with her because I miss my Bestfriend and I need to let her know that even though she might have thought she was protecting me keeping it from me hurt so much more. It's time to get my Bestfriend and my sister back.