Hold Onto Life

Hayes

April 24, 2019

I sigh and looked at Doctor Burn before shaking my head. Right now I was so angry and confused. Why the hell is Meadow getting mad at me. She acts like she is struggling but really she isn't. At least I don't think she is. After all she isn't sick in bed all day. She doesn't have to take medicine, be in a wheelchair when her muscles and bones can't take it anymore. I live through hell compared to her.

"You know it's not good for lovers to fight",Doctor Burns says as I scoff and roll my eyes.

"We aren't together. I doubt Meadow even sees me that way",I admit before she nods then sighs placing my medicine on my nightstand opening my door and there stood a boy. He had black hair with gray eyes.

"I'm sorry Rye but he is about"-

"What did you do to her" Rye asked moving past Doctor Burns standing in front of me as I tried to understand what he meant. Who the hell was he.

"I'm sorry who are you",I asked as Rye face contorted to anger.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO MEADOW",Rye shouts as I immediately recognize him. He was the best friend Meadow always talked about. I sigh and sit up as I roll my eyes.

"Wait so she sent you",

"No I came because she called me crying and asking for help. So I'm gonna ask again and be careful how you answer because she has had a rough life. What. Did. You. Do",Rye asked as I immediately got angry and hurt.

She had a fucking hard life! I have been sick ever since I can remember. I have not been a normal child. My father died when I was 8 and my own mother rarely sees me because it breaks her heart.

"What did I do? You should be asking what she did! I am the victim. Do you know what it's like to be sick and not do normal things because it might hurt your health. I have dealt with this for years"-

"Fuck You! Do you know what it's like to be three years old and watch as your father says he doesn't want to be apart of the family and leave. Then years later to have your mother diagnosed with bronchial adenoma. Then to watch as you have to visit your mother in a hospital bed. This hospital. To have your second home be a hospital. Do you know what it's like to come home from being bullied and made fun of because you had no mother or father. To be told your mother died. Never getting to say goodbye",he shouts as I begin to talk but he stops me.

"Then the worst part is her father said he'd take her only to back out when he realizes that he won't get beer money for taking care of his own fucking daughter! His own daughter! That's what Meadow deals with. She's so busy making everyone happy she forgets to take time for herself so don't you dare ever talk to her ugly",Rye growls as I stopped.

This is what Meadow dealt with. She never told me. I never knew. She seemed like her life was perfect but she wasn't. He suddenly felt like a big jerk. He looked up at Rye.

"I understand just promise me you will try to get her to come back. Please. She can't back out of our deal",I say as Rye frowns.

"What deal",he asked as I chuckle and sigh.

"Meadow promise she would continue visiting me only if I took my meds",I explain as something crossed his eyes and I realized she must have never told him of the deal.

"I have to go",Rye says turning and leaving as I sigh and lay back on my bed. I look at my meds stopping as I bite my lip. I throw them down the trash.

Rye was right. Meadow had a fucked up life and she didn't need me bringing her down. I wasn't gonna do that. She didn't need another burden. I made my decision I'll stop taking my meds and then she won't have to worry about me and my fucked up self anymore. I laid back and looked at the ceiling smiling as I thank anyone who heard for bringing Meadow to me.

She was like a angel being sent to me and I am so thankful. I grin and fall asleep thinking of her and of bidding her goodbye humming softly in my sleep.
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April 28, 2019

"He's seizing! We need to get him to E.R. He's going into Cardiac Arrest",Doctor Burns says as all I see are shapes and blurry figures. For a second I thought I saw Meadow till I realized my decision to say goodbye.

"I don't understand. He's been taking his meds"-

"A-a-ctually I-I h-haven't",I croak as it hurt to breath and I cough more and suddenly I feel liquid. I look down and see blood. Doctor Burns looked at me worried and sighs.

"Stay with us Hayes stay with us",Doctor Burns says as I looked at her and gasp as my vision was getting foggy and dark. I realized I was either passing out or dying. I wasn't ready to die. No! No! No! My eyes close and I succumb to darkness.

I fought as I felt a pull but it wasn't enough. I begin to beg God well shit anyone who could hear me. I wanted to see Meadow again. I needed to see her again. She hadn't visited in four days and that's when I let myself go but I promised I'd take my meds If Meadow just came. I needed to see her. I gasp and just let myself go and trust that I will pull through.

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I woke up to a blinding light as I bit my lip. I groan as I stretch and sit up realizing I'm in my room. I look around hoping to see Meadow but instead I see Doctor Burns outside talking to Rye Meadows friend and they seemed to be in deep conversation. And the conversation didn't look like it was going so well.

"Just bring her here!",Doctor Burns shouts before she walks into my room and gasp as she breaks into a smile.

"Well the heartbreaker is awake",Doctor Burns says as I chuckle. She laughs and hugs me before she looked at me seriously and I nod.

"I'm sorry. I guess I just miss her. She makes me enjoy life. She makes me feel that life is worth living. She is amazing, kind, funny, oh fuck so hot. She sexy"-

"Okay okay I get it",Doctor Burns says as I blush and I nod sighing.

"I promise I'll continue taking my meds",I said as she nods before handing me a cup of water and I drink watching as she leaves me. I lay back and sigh as I grins knowing I could never no matter what forget Meadow.

She changed me and fuck I don't think I'm complaining. In fact I fucking love it! For her I'd do anything. I laugh and smirk thinking about her and the way she was. I think I had a crush on Meadow Alvarez.