"You want to know how I do your wife on this bed, right?" pilyong tanong sa kanya ni Farhan. "She hates this... But her husband seems to enjoy it so much."
You gave her money and exceeded her needs... A good husband indeed. But it seems like it's...
ALL HE COULD DO IS TO CRY ON HIS PARENTS' ROOM—as he always does. Lumaki siyang malaki ang tiwala sa sarili sa mga bagay na kaya niyang gawin at hindi, ngunit tila ba iba ang mga nangyayari ngayon. Siya'y masyadong sinusubukan ng tadhana.
"Mom, this is... this is nothing. Kaya lang naman ako naiyak, kasi masakit, e," sambit niya na pilit pinipigil ang pagluha.
Napa-iling ang kanyang ina na mas nasasaktan para sa kanyang kalagayan. "Son, you don't have to hide kung ano ang nararamdaman mo. You've been through a lot, you deserve to take it all out."
Mas lalo lamang siyang humikbi, at nang makita 'yon ng kanyang ama ay kusa na itong lumabas mula sa kwarto.
"I've never been what you guys want me to be. All I was... Was a failure. Uuwi ako rito na umiiyak. Kasi, akala ko kaya ko, mom, e. Hindi pala. I'm sorry, kasi kailangan ko lang talaga ng maiiyakan. Kasi, ang bigat na. Ang sakit. I could've just died, maybe that would be better."
"Shh, don't say that, anak. Isa lang ulit itong hamon. You are stronger than this. You said, noong bata ka, you'll always fight for what you want, hindi ba? Is this what you want? Ang umiyak?"
"No, mom. I don't want to cry anymore. All I wanted was to be loved... Pero sa tuwing nagmamahal ako, umuuwi ako laging luhaan."
Siya'y sinunggaban ng mahigpit na yapos ng kanyang ina, ang yakap na hindi niya akalaing kakailanganin niyang muli.
"Now, son, I want you to move on. 'Wag mo na sanang pigilan na makapunta ng America. This is for your own good," sambit pa nito.
Randall tried to fall asleep, but the pain keeps him awake. Tulad nga ng sabi ng iba, mas mabuti nang masaktan ng pisikal, h'wag lamang ang damdaming totoong nagmamahal. Dahil hindi kakayaning ng puso nito.
He can still hear his phone ringing. That sounds like hell for him, knowing it was that guy who made him believe that there was still a chance, of him finding somebody who could truly love him. And proved him wrong later on.
Sa kabilang banda ay naroon si Farhan sa kanyang sasakyan at seryoso ang mukha. Ang totoo'y noong mascarade ball niya pa nalaman na buntis si Melanie.
Paano niya nga ba naman aaminin ang isang malaking katangahan? But, he can't abandon his woman. Lalo pa't isa itong pangarap natupad sa pagkalalaki niya, ang makabuo ng pamilya.
Bumaba siya mula sa sasakyan at naglakad patungo sa kanyang mansyon. Naroon sa kusina ang nahihikbing si Melanie. Nang makita niya ito ay hindi naiwasang lumambot ng kanyang tigasing puso.
Ang babaeng nasa harapan niya ngayon ay ang babaeng nagdadala ng kanyang magiging anak. Ang dahilan kung bakit siya magkakaroon ng panibagong rason para mabuhay. But, it would've been better if it was... Randall.
"Farhan," bungad sa kanya ni Lanie. Agad itong tumayo at siya'y hinagkan.
"You better take your rest. It's not good for you to stay this late."
"May sasabihin ako—"
"Yeah, that your husband already knew that you are pregnant?" Natigilan si Lanie at kita iyon sa mga mata nito. "He knows it and comes to me to knock me out."
"I can't blame him, Farhan. Now that it's almost over, I just wish that everything will be fine for him."
He grew up not minding anybody's feelings or anybody's drama. But thinking how Randall could go with the pain of what happened, he just knows that he f*cking cares, and that makes him sadder.
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