The Animal Inside Him (A BBRae fanfiction)

Chapter 3

This chapter will be about Raven's viewpoint of Beastboy and Dedicated to one of my best friends. Sorry the last chapter was so short, I was in a rush. something happened to one of my best friends, i don't know exactly what, but I haven't seen her in a few days.

I can feel his pain. I can feel it deep inside me. In my Heart. He doesn't know it, but I realize he's being fake. Fake when he's laughing with Cyborg. Fake when he's telling Jokes to Starfire. Fake when He's fighting Robin during training. I know he's being fake. I can see it happening everyday. When he notices me watching him he just turns to me with that ear-to-ear smile that is just so fake I want to throw him out a window.

There are those times that only I see. Whenever it rains and his animal instincts can't sense anything he sits in the rain, trying to be strong. But he fails at even that. I come and sit beside him and he acts like he doesn't notice me out of fear of his voice cracking and me finding him out. But I'm well aware of the silent tears he sheds while I sit next to him and rest my head on his shoulder.

He's been alone for so long he won't ask for help. He's so good at hiding his real emotions that I can barely even sense his true feelings with my empathy. Yet, I do. I'm so scared that he's going to wallow in his deep depression all by himself, without letting anybody in. Our friends have no idea what he's going through. They just notice him acting wierd, occasionally.

It's pretty pathetic, but him acting wierd is him not being a big joke. I have no idea why he's so depressed. Everytime I've actually tried to get into his head I couldn't get in, because he's too strong mentally. I've always thought he was stupid, but lately I've changed my mind about that. He's just been so, I don't know......Different. He isn't just different, he's also been more distant lately.

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"Hey Beastboy"I say to the surprisingly awake Beastboy, "What are you doing up this early?" I ask. He really surprised me yesturday, Him being in my room when I woke up. When I told him he saved me he looked like he was just a thin line away from breaking down. I can tell he did break down and cry from how splotchy his face is.

"Couldn't sleep" he says in a heavy voice.

"Oh, Well, Thanks again for saving me from Adonis." I say as I prepare some Tea. I jump back when I hear Beastboy slam his fist into the table. "B-Beastboy what's wrong? Are you okay?" I ask Worriedly. He gets out of his seat and backs me into the fridge. He grabs my wrists and piuns them above my head.

"Raven....Stop lying to yourself....I didn't save you and you know it. You're just being Delusional." He looks me straight in the eye. "See? You know I hurt you in your heart, because right now...You're terrified of me." He growls and then He lets go of me as the doors slide open and Robin comes in. 

"I'll be in my room." He looks down at the floor and walks out of the commons room.

"What's with him?" Robin asks as he sits down at the table with the newspaper and some coffee.

"I don't know, but I'm going to find out...." I say in a cold voice and storm after Beastboy.

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"Booyah"

Wha- I turn around and find Cyborg behind me worshipping some new phone. "Robots" I mutter to myself and keep on walking.

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I finally get to Beastboy's room and pound on the door waiting for him to answer it. "Beastboy, come open this door or I knock it down!" I demand. I wait for a minute and when he still doesn't open it I phase through the door and into his room. I find his room a place of utter chaos. clothes in piles everywhere. Both bunk-beds dirty and unmade. Then I look at his desk, Which is surprisingly clean. I look around, but he's not in here. But the window's open, so he must of escaped through it.

I glance over at the desk again. 'I wonder why that's the only thing in here that's clean?' He's not in here so I walk over to his desk and start my investigation.....

Yeah hopefully that's a little better!