Arianna Ridgins...
Her name kind of sound familiar. I can't remember it clearly but I'm sure I have heard it before. Come on think, Romee! Think!
It's been hours since lunch and I still can't stop thinking about that Arianna girl. Honestly, I don't really feel anything towards her. Naisip ko kasi bigla na she's just one of the girls who's crushing over Ean and as an SG President of course he has to be polite. The reason why he ate her cookies.
I have to be open minded with this kind of thing. Sa gwapo ba naman ng lalaking iyon aba it's normal that he has a lot of girls around him trying to get his attention. But then, sorry girls I already got his attention. So no worries.
The only thing that's bugging me about Arianna Ridgin is that her name is super duper familiar talaga. It's like at the tip of my tounge but still nothing. I still can't pinpoint where I encountered that name before.
"Miss Leonard?"
I blinked twice at saka ako nabalik sa realidad when I felt someone patting my shoulder. Pagtingin ko ay si Miss Sanchez pala our Philosophy teacher. She was frowning and I can sense that she wanted to scold me for being absentminded on her class. Well, what can I say? I'm Romee Leonard, try to scold me and I'll make sure you get fired.
Just kidding! Of course who the heck am I to do those kind of things. Yes, I am my mother's daughter but I don't take advantage. Yes, I am a bully but I know my limits. I just love seeing people afraid on offending me kahit wala naman dapat silang ikatakot. Nakakatawa lang.
Saka kahit naman gawin ko iyong nasa isip nila ay wala pa ring mangyayari. My mother would never allow it. And she'll kill me for real. Or maybe send me to a rehab boarding school para lang maging mabuting anak ako. And I don't want that happening, no.freaking.way.
"Go to your group now." Aniya saka bumalik sa kanyang table.
I sighed and shooked my head saka tumayo. Saan ba si Kaitlyn at talagang hindi pa ako ininform na may groupings palang nagaganap. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung sino kagrupo ko.
Paglinga ko para hanapin sana si K ay nagtagpo naman ang mata namin ni Ean. He was walking towards me and he was frowning but still managed to look handsome.. and hot. Okay, wait! Handsome lang. Quit describing him hot, Romee. Nagmumukha kang may pagnanasa sa lalaking ito!
Hindi nga ba?
"What are you still standing at? Come on, let's go to our group." He tugged and held my wrist before leading me to our group.
Wait! Magkagroup kami? Oh my god, thank you lord!
Pagdating namin sa mga kagrupo namin ay bigla naman silang natahimik. The smile I have kanina instantly fade. Ayan na naman sila. Whenever groupings talaga ay kung sino iyong nakakagrupo ko ganito always iyong nangyayari.
They feel always uncomfortable with me in their group. And sometimes it made me feel sad because even from my junior life and until now everything is just the same. They became stiffed, nervous, sweaty and awkward. Obviously everyone doesn't want me to be in their group because of my so called reputation.
Kaya minsan din lumalabas talaga pagkamaldita ko. And you can't blame me! I just wanted them to be themselves. Why do you think I only have a number of friends? That's because those people can act normaly around me. But then other people think that it's because they're my ka-level. Si K? Marami nga ang naaawa sa kanya for the reason she became my poor slave daw. Well, it's partly true but I considered K a friend din. I'll always do.
These people who only knows the outer part of myself will never know the real me because they never try, missing the chance to know that I value those people who still see the good side of me.
Pagkatapos ng class ay agad akong lumabas ng classroom. I suddenly don't feel well. My day started so maganda and ended up like this? Why life is so unfair!
"Romeeeeeee! Sandali wait lang!" rinig kong sigaw ni K but I didn't stop walking.
But a hand slipped on my arm kaya't napahinto ako sa paglalakad at napaharap sa taong may gawa.
"Ean.." I panted a little. I didn't noticed that I was walking earlier so fast.
"What's wrong?" He asked frowning.
"I.. I just want to go home agad." I reasoned and looked away from him.
It took him a minute to talk he was just staring at me like he was trying to figure me out.
"Then I'll drive you." He said ending the conversation leaving no objection.
He looked behind him which I also did at pagtingin ko ay siyang kakahinto lang rin ni K sa pagtakbo. She was panting really hard. I guess that was my fault.
"Wait teka hihinga muna ako.." She said gesturing her hand to stop while still panting. ".. so" tumayo naman ito ng maayos pagkatapos. ".. sabay na kayo? sige Ean iuwi mo na yan, bye Romee!" She waved her hand saka tumakbo ulit at nilagpasan kami. Baliw talaga ang babaeng iyon.
"Come on.." Ean tugged my hand. His voice was soft despite being so thick.
I let him walked me to the school parking lot then to his car. Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto kaya tahimik na pumasok naman ako. Then he jogged his way to the other side of the car. Silence enveloped us after even while he is driving.
"I'm sorry.." I whispered.
Naramdaman ko naman ang pagkabigla ni Ean sa aking sinabi.
"Baka kasi maturn-off ka sa bigla kong paiba-iba ng moods. I was just sad.." nakatingin lamang ako sa aking mga kamay na nasa aking lap.
"... kung napapansin mo whenever we have this group activity nobody always want me to be part of their group." I laughed slightly. "It's childish, I know. " and it was full of fakery.
I looked out at the window. And stared right at my reflection. Where I saw the girl who look so much alike the most popular bully at our school but the difference between them is that the girl's eyes held so much emotion than the girl that everyone always watched and criticized. She was a nobody and she was alone in her own little world.
"I just want to be part of it. That's all but why can't I?"
A hand cupped my cheeks. Ean slowly turned my face to him. Hindi ko napansin na nasa tapat na pala kami ng mansion. I was too preoccupied with my thoughts.
"And here I thought you were just jealous." aniya na siyang nagpakunot ng noo ko.
Jealous? Why would he think of that?
"It never cross my mind that such tough girl can hide her sadness away, so damn professional." He leaned his forehead to mine. Our nose touched.
He's so close.. I'm slowly having second thoughts.
"Starting right at this moment I will look more into those eyes.. even if I need to dig up deeply. And this time, I will figure it out correctly." He whispered before slowly touching my lips with his.
And I fell.
