Dear family,
I have never been a fan of goodbyes
But I guess It's time to say goodbye,
I would have really loved to continue this journey of life but I'm scared to,
I guess things were never meant for me and I can't take it anymore,
I am done trying to hide my pains,
Every single day of my life was one issue or the other,
I was too afraid to confide in anyone,
I guess my pride was just too much for me to handle,
I do not know what awaits me when I get down off this rope.
Will there be a void? Or will I come face to face with God? I just don’t care anymore.
All I care about now, is leaving this wicked world,
For everything I had to go through, I had to struggle,
Struggle for life, for love, for education, for talent, for money, for everything.
Why me?
Is that even a question to ask, it is only always me,
With one issue or the other,
I am tired!
To those that cared for me, I'm sorry I had to do this,
Please remove any memory you have of me,
To those I loved, I really loved you and wanted to spend each day of my life with you
To those that never cared and tarnished my image the more and made my life a living hell, I hope you are happy now.
To my family, I always felt like a small child in a strange land,
No one to talk to, no one to confide in,
When I think of approaching one of you, I think of how loud your shout will be and I'll have to remain silent and lock myself up till it eats me up,
I'm taking of the mask of fake smiles tonight.
