if you are going to fall in love with me, here are some things you need to know beforehand.
I always get insecure, either about my body, or the clothes I wear or how my hair appears, or how well I gloss my lips or how my stomach appears on a bodycon gown and most importantly, I'm always insecure about how much someone loves me, no matter how much you prove it, I may still doubt it at some point.
I cry alot, either by watching an emotional movie or by listening to a sad song or hearing about people's tragedy stories.
Sometimes I have no reason to cry, and when I'm finding things hard, I cry to express how much hurt I feel.
I get mood swings easily. I could be happy this minute and the next minute, I will be like " I want to be left alone".
overthinking will be one things you'll hate about me. You may just say a sentence and my head would have processed 10 meanings to it. I always want a detailed explanation to everything that happens because I tend to misunderstand things alot.
I could be really clingy, I always want to be with you, hold your arms, hug you and be the baby that I am. It will be more like having an adult baby around you which could be frustrating sometimes but I can't help it.
I will be so hard to understand, some days I may be so off and give weird replies and push you away from me, not because I don't love you, but because I want to prevent myself from getting hurt.
It will be so difficult to open up to you, I will always say negative things about myself and even if you try to make me feel good by saying nice things, I still won't listen.
I can be very difficult to love, but if I love you, I love deeply, no matter how embarrassing you look or how messy your hair is or how much people say bad things about you and call me dumb or how you eat or walk, I'll love still.
I'll always be by your side and will try my best to make you feel comfortable around me and be happy.
Even when you want me to leave, I'll hang around you because my heart belongs to you already.
I will be difficult to be with so if you won't be able to keep up with it all, don't be too selfish to stay for your gain, it'll only make me get hurt at the end.
© ogheneyoma
