Memories

Mates?????

Zara Pov.

"Are you the new wolf?" The man asked me randomly and he led me to that I thought was outside. I stayed silent not knowing how to answer the question and walked on. Once we were outside I went behind a tree shifted back to my human form, and walked out from behind the tree.

"I guess I am. My name is Zara Rose. You are?" I asked not caring if I was unclothed. But he lowered his slightly glowing eyes.

"My name is Joshua Tibbs. My sister and I were brought into this pack when our other pack was slaughtered in a war. We were just pups at the time." Joshua said as he took off his shirt and handed it to me. I gave him a funny look. So he replied, "To cover your-self, Zack would be mad if any other wolves was staring at his mate without clothes on."

"Mate? I'm unmated so I don't care look all you want. Where is Zack Dux? I still have to meet with him and find me a room so that I may can some much-needed sleep." I said as I walked in to the house with only a shirt on. I got a few wolf whistles before Joshua called them out on it. After all that I felt a hand grab onto mine and run me up into a room I looked up to see a very warn out Joshua leaning against the door.

"What is wrong with you? Are you trying to get me killed?" Joshua asked trying hard to catch his breath.

"What do you mean what is wrong with me? You were the one pulling me into an unknown room. Wait. What do you mean about trying to get you killed?" I bombarded him with questions.

"Zack would kill me if one of those guys had ever laid a finger on you. It doesn't matter if I tried to stop it one touch and I'm dead. Ok? That is why I dragged you up here to my room. Zack already know that you're here and he is on his way." Right as Joshua said that Zack walked in to the room.

"You never told me your name." Was all Zack said to me but his eyes protruded something else, something forbidden.

"Zara Rose" I said looking him in the eyes.

Zack Pov.

She looked me in the eyes and said "Zara Rose"

"Zara, such a lovely name for my lovely mate. Zara would you please make me the happiest wolf in the world and be my mate?" I asked her one of the most binding thing in the wolf world, the bond of mates, it is the bond of love. She looked at war with herself.

"I'm sorry." She said as she ran out of the room for the second time, this time I was going with her. I got up to stop her and Joshua stopped me.

"She just needs time to adjust to this. All of this. Do you remember how I reacted to you telling me that all I had left of my old life was my sister? I fought you every step of the way, in till I visited the gravesite of my parents. That was when I know you were just trying to help me, trust me on this." Joshua spoke to me in a soft voice.

I nodded my head and slowly walked to my room I was right outside the door when I heard crying from inside it. I felt a sharp pain on the inside of my wrist; I then heard a quite scream come from my room.

Zara Pov.

I ran out of the room, backtracking my way to the room that I woke up in. It just seemed like the right place to die. I walk in close the door, and search around for something to cut my wrist with. To my avail there was a good-sized pocketknife on the bedside table. I sit on the bed and snatch it off the table. I flipped over in my hand repeatedly almost as if I was waiting for some one to burst though the door and stop me. I started to say a very quite prayer to the Great Luna the one that gave all of us life. Some apples never fall far from the tree my mother did this same thing only my dad got there before she had died.

"Great Luna, please forgive me for what I'm about to do. I can't take this anymore I need to get some kind of relief, something to get me back to being me. I killed my own pack, my family, and my fiancé. I can't go on like this I need something to take the pain away for now, no forever. Thank you for all that you had done for me but I don't deserve this I was suppose to die with them not get raped and left to rot. Goodbye to anyone I knew and had died. Goodbye to those I was gonna meet but will never now." I got up locked the door, opened the knife, softly crying I pressed it against my wrist and slit across.

A small yelp escaped my lips as pain shot up my arm. The knife had mountain ash brushed onto the blade. What small trace of it that got into my veins was slowly killing me from the inside out.