Him

Broken

TW-, rape drugs, abuse, alcohol

back to y/n pov

once Matt dropped me off i went to my room and waved at him through my window, he waved back and gave a quick smile, fuck. his smiles they get me every time.

my dad yelled at my to come downstairs so i did, as soon as i did my dad slapped me and yelled at me for leaving for a few days without telling them, i never tell them anything because, me and my parents have never had a good relationship. my dad told me i had a "appointment" set up and i need to get ready for it, (you'll find out what i mean in a minute), i instantly thought about my first "appointment" and started crying

flashback

little 12 year old me was having fun in our pool outside but i was told to come inside so i did, when i got to my room there was my dad talking with a man and a bunch of things sprawled out on my bed and floor. once my dad saw me he told me to listen and do what the man said.

i didn't know what was going to happen to me so i just agreed, i sat down as far away from him as possible but he got up and walked towards me and as soon as he got to me he slapped me and told me i needed to take off my clothes i knew what he wanted to do so i said no and then he slapped me again and again until i did what he said, i was raped from the ages of 12-15 all because my dad needed money for drugs and alcohol, he always made my "appointments" for when my mom would be away on business trips and my siblings would always be out of the house. at first i would scream and cry for help but after getting beat several times and nobody coming to help i realized that there was no use because nobody would ever hear my cries for help

end of flashback

i stated crying and he slapped me again saying "stop being a fucking baby y/n and stop being selfish be useful for once do something for the family we have no money" "if we have no money then maybe you should go out and get a job i was fucking raped "for the family" when you only used the money for your drugs and alcohol" i was so angry so i yelled at him then i tried to run up to my room but my dad grabbed my arm really hard i could tell there was gonna be a bruise, he then punched me in the face several times and grabbed my face really hard and yelled at my for being ungrateful and that if i'm not ready for my "appointment" in the next 15 minutes then he will kill me, i said ok and ran up to my room

i instantly pressed stop recording on my phone and FaceTimed Matt, he answered after the second ring "y/n are you okay do you need me to come pick you up?" "i'm not okay Matt i need you to come pick me up in the next like 10 minutes please i really need you right now" he said okay then hung up and started driving over, i finished packing and as soon as i saw Matt's car i climbed out of my window and ran into the van where Matt was waiting for me, it was a five minute drive but since he was speeding we got there i'm two minutes.

as soon as we got inside the house Nick and Chris ran up to me and hugged me, i started bawling my eyes out then they saw my arm and my face and they all started crying, they knew i wasn't ready to talk about it yet so we all just went into the living room and all cuddled together on the couch until we all fell asleep, i woke up and Nick and Chris were gone so it was only me and Matt, he told me that the other two went out to go get breakfast and should be back really soon. as Matt said they were back in 10 minutes with my favorite breakfast from my favorite place, they also came back with coffee from Starbucks, my favorite drinks and snacks, and some face masks and stuff like that for me, i started tearing up "thank you boys i love you all" "anything for you, we love you too" we all had a group hug them are our breakfast.

i love the boys so much they've always been there for me even when they don't know what's wrong.

time skip (five days)

i asked all of the boys to sit down because i want to tell them what happened and more about my life at home, i figured i needed to get it off of my chest and tell them since i trust them with my life

"okay so from the ages of 12-15 my dad was pretty much selling my body, by that i mean people would pay him to have sex me even if i didn't agree, he used that money to buy drugs and alcohol for himself and beat me if i ever tried to get out of a "appointment" as he called them, he also let the men beat me and do whatever they wanted to do with me, he would always do this whenever my mom was away on business trips and when all my siblings were out of the house"

all three of the boys looked at me with such sad eyes with tears rolling down there faces, they all look broken and i haven't even finished yet 

"well when i turned 16 my dad told me i was done with my "appointments", but last night after Matt dropped me off my dad got mad at me for leaving for days without telling him where i was going and slapped me and told me i had another "appointment" . he then told me that i needed to stop being such a crybaby and do something for the family because we have no money, and i was so mad i told him that i had been raped "for the family" for 3-4 years and he's using all the money for drugs and alcohol and that's why we don't have any more money, i tried to go upstairs but he grabbed my arm and then my face and punched and slapped me multiple times and said if i wasn't ready for my "appointment" in 15 minutes then he would kill me, then that's when i called Matt and he came and picked me up"

at this point we all had tears running down our faces, the first person to react was Chris he walked up to me and pulled me into a tight hug and we both started crying even more, he pulled away and said "i'm so sorry you had to go through that y/n, i promise he won't ever hurt you again" he kissed my cheek then stood aside as Nick came up to me and hugged me "i'm so fucking sorry y/n, i wish i could've done something to help you" "it's not your fault you guys didn't know because i didn't tell anyone since i was scared no one would believe me" "oh y/n of course we would've believed you" he then kissed the top of my head, Matt came up to me with no warning and pulled me into a super tight hug, he started crying which made me cry more, when he pulled away he put his hands on either side of my face and used his thumbs to brush away my tears as they fell, he didn't say anything, his actions said enough, then he kissed the top of my forehead and let his lips linger there for a second before saying "i love you y/n" "i love you too Matt"

and with that we all had a group hug then went into Matt's room to watch some movies, we made a fort and got a bunch of snacks and drinks, i decided i wanted to change into comfy clothes so i went into their laundry room and grabbed a pair of plaid sweatpants, a hoodie and a t-shirt i changed them went back into Matt's room, all of the boys looked at me weird and i noticed Matt's face started to turn red Chris goes "nice new clothes there y/n" i laughed and realized what he meant and got back into the fort and lightly punched his arm

Chris decided on a scary movie even though everyone was against it especially Nick, when the first scary part came on i jumped and hid underneath the covers like a little kid, Matt put his arm around my waist and gave me a"is this okay" look so i nodded my head and leaned into him more, i ended up falling asleep cuddled up to Matt

Matt pov

once y/n left the room i decided that i wanted to tell Nick and Chris about how i feel about  
y/n

"guys don't be super loud but i have major feelings for y/n i just don't know if she feels the same way or not like i love her more than a friend"
of course Nick was the one to be super loud and gasped really loud we talked for a bit about it and they said it was obvious that she liked me back and that i should some a move tonight and as soon as i said okay she walked into the room with my sweatpants and hoodie on, she looks so good in my clothes

Chris decided on a scary movie even though everyone was against it especially Nick, when the scary parts of the movie came on y/n hid under the covers like a little kid, it was adorable, i put my arm around her waist and gave her a "is this okay" look, she nodded her head yes and leaned into me more than she already was,next thing i know we are both asleep cuddled with each other

a/n-i can't reply to comments 😩 wattpad won't let me for some reason but know i'm still reading them i just can't reply to them