Motionless At Night

chapter 1

(tw// smut, self harm, parent/gaurdian abuse)

Hi. My name is Espn (pronounced Espin my mother meant to name me Aspen but was too high when she gave birth to me and spelled it wrong). I am 15 years old, I have raven black hair with a purple streak (it was kind of an anomoly, I was born with it and nobody beleives me when i tell them). I have heterocromia in my eyes and one is raven black and one is ice blue and ive always been bullied for being different. My favoirite bands are BVB MIW INK Korn Slipknot Hollywood Undead Godsmack Skillet Lilith Czar SWS OM&M BOTDF ICP BrockenCyde.

My parents died in a tragic car accident when i was 3 yeras old. Everyone at school makes fun of me for being an orphan but i'm trying to stay strong. Ever since they died I have been living with my alcoholic aunt, Lyndia. I hate my aunt lyndia. She beats me every day after school if I don't clean the entire house and make dinner for her. I've tried to contact CPS before but she is a good actor and they don't believe me :(. One day i'm going to run away and start a band once i find friends who actually listen to my scary music. Everyone at my school is such preps and they only like one direction and justin beiber. Everyone except for my boyfriend, Noah. He introduced me to a lot of my favorite bands, and we related to eachother because his parents are also alcoholics. He has white hair (natural), and his eyes change color depending on his mood (but hes usually depressed so their a deep sea blue).

Today was a tuesday like any other. Other than the fact that Noah and I were going to see my favorite band Motionless in White. I woke up at 5:55AM to my aunt yelling at me. I want to run away so bad. I locked my door and threw my raven black hair into Dutch braids. My mother taught me how to braid dutch braids before she died. I liked the way this style looked on me because it shows the purple streak in my hair really well. I put on my creatures Motionless in White tee shirt (creatures is a motionless in white album, my favoriute one). And black skinnies and purple swing-815 boots. I also put in purple guages in my 12 guage ears. I like that they match my natural purple streak. I also put the purple snake bites in. I put on my collection of silicon band bracelets to cover up my fresh scars (I had an urge to cut last night :( i gave in). I put on my purple eye shadow and it faded to a black smokey eye and a giant winged eye liner that was super sharp and looked good with my eye shadow. I put black lipstick on my bottom lip and purple on the top. It made my snake bites and guages and purple streak look even more purple. Now that I was ready I texted Noah and told him to meet me at the concert. We were skipping class to wait in line, because fuck mr. hansen my math teacher and fuck school. I hate everyone their and i love motionless in white. Noah showed up wearing a 5sos tee shirt and black skinnies. He wore a burgundy beany and I rolled my eyes because he looked like a poser. (5sos is literally pop music).

"Go home and change. Now." I growled.

"Why?" he asked. He was so clueless sometimes.

"People are going to think you are a faggot if you wear that inside."(i can say that, i am pansexual :3)

Noah frowned at me and seemed depressed. I could tell because his eyes became a darker shade of blue. He finally gave in and left the line. Later he came back wearing an ICP shirt. And clown makeup. He looked so sexy in his clown makeup. He looked just like Shaggy 2 Dope (my favorrite person in ICP) I couldn't resist the urge to make out right then and there. I tackled him to the ground and we made out for the next 30 minutes. As i could feel his bulge growing they opened the doors for the concert and we went inside (But i would not have had s*x with him anyway. I am a virgin and want my first time to be special (and preferably with dahvie vanity). As we walked in, SWS was already playing. They ended up playing iris, my favoruite song by them. Noah and I ended up at barricade and kellin was so cute in person and he was definitely looking at me the whole time. We even held hands as he stood over the crowd for if im james dean, your audrey hepburn. I felt so special even though noah was definitely glaring at kellin. Who cares anyway noah is like half a poser and its not like we were ever going to last. After SWS finished their set with Kick Me, INK came on. Spencer Charnas was so sexy. I wondered what his dick looks like. They even played my favoruite song rocking the boat. During that song a guy in an inflatable shark costume ran around and the crowd yelled FUCK THAT SHARK (A/N: This actually happened at the show I went to and it was bad ass) After that, my favorite band MIW came on. As they were playing America, chris looked at me while singing "sick and depraved". Later on during reincarnate he came out into the crowd and looked directly into my eyes. He said "wow your eyes are so incredibly beautiful. What is your name, gorgeous?"