Nova POV:
I wake up quickly a be push myself up I realize that it was a nightmare And I also realize that I’m also crying can I even tell Ryan would we act the same way as the way he acted in my dream no, ryan cares about me he wouldn’t do that right, oh who am I kidding he’ll hate me if I tell him the truth I can’t do it, I don’t want to lose him I don’t want to him to hate me so you know what I just wont tell him I’ll keep it a secret I don’t want to lose Ryan so if lying about my self with do the thing then that’s what I’ll do
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Next day
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Nova POV:
I walk in to the Academy and sit down on one of the couches, I woke up late because after that nightmare I couldn’t get badly any sleep
I don’t realize but Ryan came over to me and gave me some coffee since he knows I’m more of a coffee then tea fan
“Hey there nova are you okay”
He says to me when I flinch as soon as I hear him he hands me the coffee and I take a sip of it
“Yeah I’m fine just couldn’t get a lot of sleep from a nightmare”
I say to him probably shouldn’t have said the last part cause he’s probably going to ask me about my nightmare
“Hmm,ok well do you want to tell me about it or not”
He says obviously worried I don’t want to talk about it but I don’t want to make him more worried
“No I don’t want to talk about it sorry”
I say to him standing up about to walk outside
When he grabs me hand and pulls me up stare
“Nova have you been ok you’ve been acting different I’m starting to get worried”
Ryan said to me with a face of worried I refuse to tell Ryan the truth I won’t tell him because I don’t want him to hate me
“I’m completely fine Ryan just been tried that’s all you don’t have to worry love”
I say to him trying to show a forced smile it’s obvious he’s not buying it but he lets it slide as he kisses me
“Alright love just promise you will tell me what’s wrong if something happing”
He says with a smile I swear he doesn’t deserve a freak like me
“Alright I promise”
But sadly that is a promise I can’t keep.
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Behind the Facade
FanfictionNova isn't a girl. He's a boy and he always has been. But what happens when Nova Gender dysphoria gets in the way of his normal way of life.
