Behind the Facade

6. Worries

Ryan's POV
I run into the hospital and to the front desk. The lady at the desk looks up at me. "Hello, how can I help you?" She asks me. "Uh my boyfriend was rushed here, his name is Nova *******.  The lady types something in on her keyboard, glancing at me before talking again. "He's in room 105 on the second floor. Elevators are that way." She said pointing to the hallway on her left. "Thank you!" I say as I ran down the hallway to the Elevator.

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Small time skip
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I run down the hall to room 105. I quickly open the door and walk in. In front of me was a second door. I was going to open it but Drew stopped me. "Ryan, we aren't aloud to go in there yet." He calls out to me and I turn to him. "But Nova-" he stops me. "Nova's going to be okay. Look you can see him right here." He points next to him where a one-sided glass wall stands.

I walk over to the glass and see a lot of doctors and nurses moving around the room doing their job. I spot Nova. My face softens as I look at him. I place my hand on the glass. I glance at Drew, I ask him if he knew what happened. He explains to me what he knows saying, he found Nova on his bathroom floor bleeding out. He said the wounds were on his arm and he found a knife on the floor.

I ask if he knows why Nova would hurt himself and he says he doesn't and looks away from. I know he's lying about not knowing but I let it go. For now. I look back at Nova. It hurts seeing all those tubs attached to him. He even needs a intubation to breath.

How could I let this happen?! I knew something was wrong but I brushed it off just because he told me he was fine I'm a terrible boyfriend! I shouldn't have let it go, maybe if I pushed him to tell me this wouldn't have happened. But if I pushed him he would distance himself from me.

I sigh before backing away from the glass and sitting on the couch behind us. Drew sits down next to me. "He's going to be okay, he'll make it through. Drew trys to reassure me putting his hand on my shoulder. "I could've prevented this." I say. "I could've helped him, I shouldn't have let it go when he said he was fine, but I did!" I spill. "And now he's hurt, and I can't help him!" Tears start flowing down my eyes.

"Ryan I know how you feel. I could've done so much more too. I know what's going on with him and I still couldn't prevent this..."
Drew hugs me from the side. My eyes widen. "YOU KNEW?!" I yell pushing him off me and standing up. "You said you didn't know why he hurt himself! Why did you lie?!" I scream at him. Drew stands up before retaliating. "It's not my place to tell you! It's Nova's!" Yells back. "Not your place?! Nova's in that room right there hurting and your saying it's not your place?! It doesn't matter! Just tell me what's wrong!"

I can't believe him! Nova hurt himself and I need to know what happened, why can't Drew just tell me what's going on?! "Ryan please, I'm trying respect Nova's wishes here. I'm hurting just as bad as you are right now! I can't stand to see my bestfriend in this state and your making it no better right now!" He responds trying really hard to keep his cool.

I sigh. Hes right. Im just making things worst. "I'm... sorry. I shouldn't be acting like this. I'm just... worried." I look at the glass. "I just don't want to lose him." I finish.
"Your not going to lose him." Drew says. "He's hurt, yeah. But we both know Nova well. He's going to be okay. I promise." Drew responds. I finally get me emotions under control and sit back down on the couch, Drew following in suit.

Please be okay Nova. I really can't lose you..