Nova POV:
I walk in to my room covering my ears trying to shut up the voices in my head
“God damn it shut up”
I yell trying to shut what ever voice in my head up
“Oh come on what Ryan said in your dream was true I wouldn’t be shocked if he thinks that in reality as well I mean your a girl not a boy and you won’t ever be a boy”
It says to me just hitting me where it hurts if my gender dysphoria wasn’t bad enough this is making it worst
“No I’m a boy, I’m not a girl, and maybe I’m just over thinking maybe Ryan will support me if I tell him I’m trans”
I yell starting to get tired of hearing this damn voice
“Oh come on your whole life you’ve been a freak show if you being a lab rat experiment wasn’t bad enough but you are also a girl that thinks she’s a boy”
I go over to my side dour next to my bed and I grab the knife from in there and starts to cut my wrist I make 20-25 cuts on both of my arms I definitely made them far to deep and I’m already am starting to feel Dizzy and rushes to my bath room and grabs my bandages and start to bandage my arms
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10 minutes later
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Nova POV:
I start to panic It’s been about 10 minutes the bleeding should have stopped now Crap, I’m starting to feel even more dizzy then before
“Ha, maybe this will finally be the thing that does it that finally kills you”
The voice in my head says to me I don’t have time to pay attention to it I grab more bandages and put a second layer of bandages on my arm I feel more dizzy and I feel like I’m about to pass out, should I call for Ryan or Drew no I can’t, i can’t let them figure out about me cutting I made a promise to Drew to stop and Ryan doesn’t even know I’ve done self harm before i do a third layer of bandages but blood is coming through both all three layers fast and with in seconds I stand up from the bathroom floor and pass out
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Behind the Facade
FanfictionNova isn't a girl. He's a boy and he always has been. But what happens when Nova Gender dysphoria gets in the way of his normal way of life.
