'Dear Diary' (BakuDeku) ('Love Story)(fluff & smut))

Chapter 1: Therapy

"So Katsuki,You have been struggling with your anger,correct?"
"Yeah.."
"And struggling with your mental health?"
"Thats why I'm here isn't it!..Tch.."
Bakugo says angrily to his therapist.
"Sorry.."
"That's okay Katsuki,I'm here to help you,not judge"
Bakugo looks at the floor and fidgets with his fingers.
"So Katsuki, Tell me about school,How is it? How have you been coping there?"
"Dunno..it's ok I guess"
"I need more information Katsuki,If you don't open up to me I can't help you"
"I don't know what to say.."
"Tell me about how school is,Your friends? Any 'enemies' possibly,Lovers or Partners?"
"I have some friends I guess..I don't have a boyfriend..and I guess I have some enemies"
"A boyfriend you say? Your homosexual?"
"Yeah- Yeah I am."He nods slowly
"Right ok,And how is that? Have you came out to anybody?"
"Uh no not really"
"Are you scared to come out to anyone?"
"No! I'm not scared of anything!"
"Ok,Ok, well what about enemies?"
"Well you see..there is this one guy..He just gets on my nerves and I hate him..he has a stupid ugly face and weird hair.."
"Right,Does he do anything specific that gets on your nerves?"
"No...not really.."
"So why do you hate him.."
"I don't know..He is just a stupid nerd.."
"How long have you known him?"
"Since we were kids.."
"Right...Do you think you say you hate him as a way of being idenial in a way? Like maybe you do like him but you don't want to admit that to yourself "
"No..of course not.."
"Okay..I'm gonna play a little game with you,Is that ok Katsuki?"
Bakugo nods.
"Great,So I'm gonna say a letter and you have to say the first thing that comes to your head,But it has to be related to this boy you hate,ok?
"Deku?"
"Is that his name?"
"Yeah...well nickname"
"Then yes,Whatever first comes to your mind when hearing the letters and thinking about Deku,Blurt them out,Don't think about it just say the word"
"Alright.."
"S"
"Smile"Bakugo says quickly.
"Good..now the next letter..B"
"Bottom" Bakugo says and instantly regrets it,He didn't mean to say that he just blurted it out.He goes red and looks down to the ground.
"I'm so sorry- I- I shouldn't have said that"
"No Katsuki,don't apologise,Your doing just fine,Lets carry on...the next letter, C"
"Cuddle"
"M"
"Mine"
"K"
"Kiss"
"Okay,I Have heard enough..Katsuki do you think you maybe like 'Deku'?"
"No- Maybe- I don't know"
"Can you tell me about him?"
"How is this supposed to help with my anger and mental health?!?" Bakugo asks as he kicks the table infront of him.
"I just want to get an inside view of your life,Katsuki,You don't have to tell me stuff about Deku if your not up for it"
"....He has green fluffy hair...and a big smile and..he is quite short,Smart,Kind,Gay.."
"Right.."
Bakugo's face goes red and he starts to burn up.
"How do you treat Deku?"
"Badly..I often take my anger out on him.."
"Okay...would you just fill out this form for me Katsuki?"
Bakugo nods and takes the sheet of paper to fill in.

Name: Katsuki Bakugo

Questions

1.Do you ever feel like you hate yourself?
- Yes,No,Sometimes? Yes

2.Do you ever harm yourself?
-Yes,No,Sometimes? No

3.Do you ever take your anger out on friends/loved ones?
-Yes,No,Sometimes? Yes

4.Do you ever feel suicidal?
-Yes,No,Sometimes? No

5.Do you ever feel overwhelmed by thoughts,feelings,emotions?
-Yes,No,Sometimes? Sometimes

6.Do you want to change (your anger,Metal Health etc.)
- Yes,No? Yes

7.Has it been a struggle to sleep lately?
- Yes,No,Sometimes? Sometimes

8.Have you been eating:
- More than usual,Less than usual,The same as always? The same

9.Do you feel as if you are pushing people away?
- Yes,No,Sometimes? Yes

10. Do you often not know what to do with your thoughts,feelings,emotions?
- Yes,No,Sometimes? Yes

Bakugo finishes filling out the form and hands it to his therapist.
She looks through it and turns around to grab a notebook.
"Katsuki,We don't have long left of this session so I'm going to suggest some things you can do to help with your anger"
"Okay"
"I suggest you do some meditation-"
"No"
"Okay..meditation is not for you..I highly suggest you write your feelings down in this notebook,Like keeping a diary"
She hands Bakugo a notebook and pen.
"Right..how is this supposed to help?"
"Well,This is more for your mental health and not your anger,But writing down your thoughts,feelings and emotions can really help you"
"Keep a daily log of what happens and what your feeling in this diary,You don't have to show me anything you write it in,It can be as private as you want it to be"
"Okay...What about my anger? What gets rid of that"
"It's not as simple as that Katsuki,It won't just go away,You have to put effort and patience into it"
"Okay..what do I do?"
"When you get angry..I suggest you take deep breaths and count to..7"
"That's just stupid-"
"For some people,Stress toys help,So like you would bring one to school with you and use it whenver you get angry"
"Oh yeah,I'll just bring some fucking squishy,fluffy unicorn to school,That won't get me made fun of at all!"
"I know it may sound stupid,But like i said,Effort and Patience,The toy doesn't have to be a unicorn for instance,there are many different toys that can help with stress and anger"
"Ok whatever"
"Just try it,Katsuki"
"I will.."
"Okay,And please use the diary I gave you"
"Alright"
Bakugo stands up to leave when he feels a tap on his shoulder.
"Lollipop before you go?" His therapist asks with a warm smile.
"Yeah..why not..thanks"He takes one and puts his jacket on.
"No problem,I look forward to our session next week,Katsuki"
"Yeah..thanks,Bye"
Bakugo walks out and goes home

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