Hashtag #AnoDaw? (A dear diary version)

To make the long story short

We tried.. But we never make it work..
Totoo nga yung sinasabi nila. You can never befriends with your ex. Because the possibilities are..

5 things that might happened befriending your ex:

1. You might lose your own track.
You loved that person so much that you almost drop everything to make him/her special and overly feel loved. By the time you guys break it off, it's really impossible in just a period of month te feelings will go away. Diba. It's not the how long your relationship lasted.. Babe.. As your relationship got more intense the fondness that grew deeper. And you started sharing your secrets, exchanging thoughts, opinions of what might be the best or must ones. You made memories and seemingly "un breakable" bond because you're too much in love with each other. But when you break it off.. You must break it off or else, you're giving that person more and great chances of ruining your life. Girl! Bro! The bitter feelings will always be there specially when love is still there. Pero you decided to knock it off because it's for the best outcome of both of you.

2. The thing called perks of having a boy-friend which is your ex, doesn't help you grow and just containing you.
You've been friends after a year of break up. Oh! That's great! Indeed! But hey. Te way you care the other side of him cared for you, seems to be the same as if you're still in a relationship with your "ex-gf/ex-bf". You'll be carefree to call him or ask him for help. And he won't bother refusing coz he might still have interest on you. Another one, "kamusta ang lovelife.?" Well moving on really don't exist at all for me, why? Coz you will never forget the people you loved and loved you yesterday. Trust me girl. The feeling might not be there, but the memories are still in colored scale :D. Pag nakipag friend ka sa ex mo. Your love life or his/her lovelife will never be a a seen zoned on the topic. Magtatanong at magtatanong ka or siya sigurado. At pag nangyari yun. You guys just giving each other a peck of the "gosh baka may gusto pa siya sakin" "damn! I must avoid her seeing other guys". Meaning you still got the scent of being "possessive" and "assuming". It's not healthy on your part because you're just making your self a prisoner of the past. You can't never make a step forward if you keep your track on your ex. And you'll never know that you're missing so much of meeting new friends and making your social life in huge community.

3. You'll never ever find the right one.
Syempre. Kasi you'll always think that this person is the one. That's no-no! Things will never be hard if she's or he's the one.
Another thing you will always have that attitude of comparing the newbie versus your ex. Wake up!! Bat nga uli kayo nagbreak?? Look and focus on the focus!!

4. You're depriving your self of facing the reality and happiness that you deserve.
You thought it's your fault. You will always blame your self on giving up on your relationship. Pero girl? Sino ang unang sumuko? Think of that. Your butt is not a hat. So make your head more functional than your heart. Heart is just a muscle it just works on pumping the blood in and out for circulatory. Get out of your comfort zone, because when you did? That's the only time that you'll realize it's not your trash. You've been fooled. And celebrate because you chose and decided to salvage your self. Sometimes it's better to hear things from te people who really sees it, those who are not in the spell of "katangahan".

5. You'll never know what you truly deserve. And you're just permitting him to fool you even more.
You thought the relationship was a perfect one until the storm came in and shattered everything into bits. The thing is your ex boyfriend and currently your buddy, already had a love life. Ayun, sweet-sweetan sila, you'll ask him how thing's going, an he'll tell you a fancy story of them, and you're pretending unaffected and happy for them. But in reality, here's "sayang". "Kung sana", "dapat kasi". "Sana kami nalang ulit" "sana ako nalang ulit". "Ang tanga-tanga ko kasi". Popoy at Basha lang? Come on!! Sabi nga ng friend ko.. "Past is past. MOVE ON"

The worst scenario that might happened: he'll make you fall for him over again, and put no labels on it. But you can't date, and it's hard for you to go out on a date because you had your self voluntarily submitted to an uncertain commitment with that person. And you thought that person is exerting so much the way you do . But the truth is.. THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE. You're just being so mesmerized by what you think and what you thought. Meaning your own fantasy is crashing you. Stop daydreaming!! Sa fairy tale lang nangyayari yan.
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That's what I realize. Holding back on the past doesn't make you a pioneer of your future. Learning from it is better than digging it over time. Be happy that it happened to you as early as now, at least makakatayo ka pa. Hindi pa ganon kasama. So if you're having an unhealthy relationship go out, habang kaya pa. :)

On next chapter how will you know if you're in an unhealthy relationship.

End of the chapter .