Hashtag #AnoDaw? (A dear diary version)

Behind each scene. .is a grayscale

2009
Universidad de sta. Isabel

I dicided to transfer hoping to have a new life a better one, yung buhay na katulad ng karamihan, far from hatred, from anguish, away from riot, from noise pollution, away from people who don't know anything but to judge and criticize. Just to cool things down. Just to zip all the issues. To clear my head. Then here comes but and I wish..

Here I met Ms and Mr Lax. Ms. And Mr Blabby. Ms and Mr. Kill. And my Neutralizers:)

Dax's P.O.V.
Yung pinaka unang gabi ko sa Farah's Dormitory wala akong ibang ginawa kundi umiyak..
Hindi naman ito yun yung unang beses na mag-isa ako or mahiwalay sa family. I just feel hurt and alone because of what happened a year ago. And when dawn sets I'm faking everything...

Si ate Imee ang kauna-unahang FilAm na Bicolana na nakilala ko. She is smart, charming and possesses that conservative yet liberated character, she's old enough not to mess things up and to mess things up.. She is my confidante. She knows how to boost my morale and yet make me feel bad sometimes because she always have a point.

Si Angel she's my best budd. We don't even know when and how basta nagclick lang kami. She's funny, great mind and imaginations, she's a dreamer, she loves to eat and try new things she loves to walk and read stuff.. Super sipag niya. I admire her warrior instinct.

Marge my boyish yet kikay ROTC and super OC-OC friend.. Competitive, palaasar, mahilig mangtrip, malakas tumawa, family oriented and she loves her boyfriend na never kong nakilala..

Those are my neutralizers..

In terms of studying we're all good with it. Then I was left behind when summer started. . . I just lost the drive to learn, to dream, and to think. Nawalan ako ng gana kasi I'm not loving what I'm doing..
Once a professor told me she'd rather teach a student who doesn't understand and catch up easily rather than a student who has a brain but has an attitude..

Ako kasi yung student na questioning everything minsan namimisinterpret maybe because it on the way I ask the question or the way I project the question. Yung student na democratic type. Na may sariling gobyerno. I won't wait for the professor to come if they'll be late beyond 15mins. And most of the time that was the scenario so I always have the A mark on my record which stands for ABSENT. I don't know how to talk politically. I'm not a pleaser. I'm not making things on their way but my way. And towards my coed.. I'm suplada, not easy to be with, that don't talk to me nor go near me if you can't say things substantially look. I barely smile and talk not unless I'm comfortable with you.
I hate those people who can get things when they taught the thing once or twice. I hate noisy bitches who doesn't have class at all yet they're trying so hard.. I hate fakes. I hate this nozy guys who doesn't have the balls to get an average grade nor even high average scores without the salvation of cheating. And nobody likes me either because of my attitude except my neutralizers.

SUMMER CLASS
at the long tables . . .

Ako: good morning pots, ate.. Si Marge nasan? Kain tayo?

Angel: Pots oh suklay (habang inaabot niya sakin) hindi ka na namn nagsuklay hay naku..

Ate Imee: oh wag ka ng aalis baka dumating na si sir ikaw bata ka..si Marge is OTW na daw so you wait. I had my breakfast at home kain ka na dyan sa canteen wag ka ng lalabas baka di ka na bumalik..

Ako: ate namn eh, 8:30 na.. Di na dadating yun..

Ate Imee: Dax ikaw na bata ka ang tigas ng ulo mo. Dadating yun late lang as usual. Di ka na nasanay.

At mga ilang minuto lang.. Tumawag na nga yung isa naming classmate nandun na daw yung professor. Ate Imee looked at me like "I told you".

CLASSROAM...