Tame me (Jensoo)+18 CONVERTED

Chapter 38: Annsoo

"Jennie! I got the pizza!"

I shut my eyes as I heard Jisoo yell. Ever since I realized that I loved him, I wasn't able to concentrate. Every tiny thing he did, would pull me into this overthinking battle with myself in which l constantly forced myself to feel otherwise but couldn't.

When I was seventeen, I had the picture of my perfect guy in my mind. Someone who was equally fucked up as me, someone who would roll a joint for me and we would then sit on our front porch smoking our evenings away. Ever since I met Jisoo, I don't know where the fuck that picture disappeared. I was ready to freaking change for Jisoo. I was ready to stop smoking, stop sleeping around, stop drinking so much. I was ready. And that thought scared me to no ends. Never in my life did I think I would be willing to change for a man.

I was ready to leave my past behind, leave all my habits
behind and start a fresh with him.

I shut my eyes again. This was bad. This was horrible. What is wrong with me? Why do I sound like a cliché bitch in a cliché movie?

I sighed. What do l do now? Do I come clean to him before my feelings get haywire? Actually, imma make it like Elsa and 'conceal, don't feel'.

Also, I was r-

The door to my bedroom opened and Jisoo peaked through, "Hey, you good? I've been calling your name for the past  minutes. Pizza's here.

"Yeah I'm sorry. I was.... Uh.. Deep In thought."

"Is it about tomorrow?" he asked. We were leaving for
nashville tomorrow. I was so used to the fucked up shit Jessica would do so that really didn't affect me much.

"Yeah. I'm just worried.

"Sh, don't be. l'll be there right?" I smiled at him and walked up to his huge body, giving him a hug.

Conceal, don't feel.

"Anything I need to know before we reach Nashville?" Jisoo asked as we settled down on the couch, each with a slice of pizza in the hand.

I nodded, "Remember what I told you about the.... People?"

"Yes" Jisoo said, taking a bite of the pizza.

"See, I always had a bad reputation in Nashville. I was the slut. I used to sleep around a lot. I use-"

He interrupted me, "Hey, hey, hey. I get it. Big baby"

I shut my eyes. Why did you have to be such a whore.

"Ive told you before. You're here with me right now.
That's all that matters to me, baby." he smiled at me.

I don't deserve this guy.

You can't possibly drag him into your mess? Just let him be! Let him find some other beautiful Korean chick and let them make tiny meatballs together. Ugh, just the image of Jisoo and another girl made my blood boil. But I can't be selfish! Jisoo doesn't deserve someone as filthy as me.

"You're overthinking"Jisoo stated, snapping me out of my thoughts. I smiled at him nervously, taking a bite of my pizza.

We ate up the rest of the pizza, meanwhile talking about
Nashville.

"I need you to come with me to Korea for thanksgiving then." my heart stopped beating for a second as l imagined meeting his mom and finally gettinga glimpse of his life back in Korea.

"You want me to meet your mother?" I asked, cautiously.

He frowned and then laughed.

"Well l'm meeting your mother so I guess it's only fitting you meet mine. She'll like you." I blushed and nodded.