its been a couple of days since the night at the beach with ruel and neither of us has spoken to each other let alone seen each other and I just wanted to leave this place I was falling into a deep hole my wrist constantly dripping out blood and are always itchy and sore and I'm constantly exhausted and tired and I'm not sure if that's from losing so much blood or if it's from the lack of sleep and pretending to be asleep when ruel sneaks in my room to leave through the window and I'm surprised no one in this family has noticed my downfall or so a thought.
CORALINES OUTFIT:
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as I walked to the kitchen to make myself a small snack as I didn't want dinner tonight I saw coco and kate talking and I sorta overheard them "do you think she is ok something is going on not just with her but ruel too" coco said looking kate worried " coco its probably just her getting used to this house and our family just let her settle in" kate said rubbing her shoulder and i finished making what i was going to eat and spoke " what are you guys talking about?" i said acting clueless even though i heard them " oh um i was telll coco she should take you and the others including ruel to the beach so you can all get out of this house for a bit where other people wont be " kate said and smiling at coco but coco's face was saying the opposite of that and then smiled back " oh um no I'm ok- " i said not being able to finish as kate cut me off " no everyone is going ok you all need to get out sorry coraline but its happening it will be good for you" she said and then walking away, great now i have to actually see him which is what i have successfully avoided for these last two weeks until now.
we where now at the beach and i was still dressed in my outfit but i just put my bikini on under and now i was sitting on the beach with my pants off and my sweater hanging over my body ( everybody is beautiful so love yourself ) in my bikini just watching coco and sylvie in the water ruel on the other hand was on the other side of the beach and i stared at him just thinking why he annoyed me so much and that's when i remembered what my mum said " if someone is annoying you and there not even doing anything it could be because you like them and either wont admit it or your having a bad lifetime" did i like ruel i mean i could definitely see why peoplewould crush on him cause i will admit he is hot especially without a shirt on and sunkissed skin and his straight white teeth and his deep brown eyes that could swallow me whole wait wait do i like ruel no i cant he is such a jerk i cant like him i cant, by this time i had zoned out and i was just hypnotised by my thoughts when someone broke my focas and spoke.
" pictures last longer you know" coco said sitting next to me " what i wasn't even looking at him i was ............. thinking" i said kinda hesitating " about?" she said nugging my shoulder and i blushed at the thought of thinking about ruel i felt my cheeks getting hot " dont worry i already know" she said bluntly with a smile on her face " what ?" i said acting confused "you like him" she said standing up and pulling me with her " what coco i dont like him please let go of my hand your hurting me" i said wincing as i felt the fabric cutting into my fresh scars and starting to bleed and coco just looked at me confused " what how am i hurting you I'm not even coraline are you bleeding is everything ok" she said looking at her hand " shit" i whispered " coraline is everything ok why are you bleed?" i kinda panicked " i-" i was cut off by ruel " its ok ill take care of it ok coco go in with sylvie" he said and held my hand instead of my wrist and pulled me to the other end of the beach where cocos bag was and he grabbed a bandaid and pulled up my sleeves even though he knew i did it he didn't know how bad it got and i saw the look of horror on his face as if he was worried and then it changed to straight faced he was blank.
( WARNING attempted sucicide, abuse, depression)
" damn your desperate" he said kinda laughing and i scoffed and pulled my hand back and rolled up my sleeve as he was ready to put the bandage on me " wow thanks for your "help"( airqouets) but i dont need it seeing as my life is a joke to you" i said and walke back to where i was sitting before and took off my sweater and ran into the water but where coco or sylie wasn't. i stood in the water crying and scratched at my wrists so they bleed and i just stuck my hands in the salty water and cryed even more from the burning and stinging sensation and just let myself bleed outand thinking of everything form ruel kissing me to my dad abusing my mum and then getting bullied in school and now I'm at someones house who was a jerk and i ae the fact that i liked him.
i was standing there for awhile and everything was going blurry and i could feel myself passing out but i felt arms holding on to me tightly and then everything blacked out.
RUEL'S POV:
i was watching coraline in the water a couple meters away from her kinda worried as she was bleeding and i didn't want her to bleed out, i saw her scrathing at her wounds and letting them bleed in the ocean i walked a little closer not making it obvious i was watching her and i could hear her crying and i hated showing my emotions that's why i shut them out and act like how i do so i soon wont feel anything but i was so worried about her.
she was the most beautiful girl i have ever seen and is so kind and caring shes nothing like mellisa (his abuse backstabbing user of an ex) the only thing is she was so much like me i knew that if we even got along we would clash and i dont want her gone, what ruel what are you saying you's arent even dating let alone friends and you definitely dont like her because she is so much like myself and now i know what it feels like to be treated how i treat her and i kinda feel bad, what ruel stop this your crazy shes just staying for a few weeks and then she is leaving so get over yourself.
i was stuck in the thought of her until i noticed her falling so i ran and grabbed her and saw her wrist she was bleeding out and picked her up and ran back to the beach laying her back on the sand carefully and just kinda straddling her as i held her wrist down trying to stop them from bleeding anymore and then yelling for coco and sylvie.
" COCO SYLVIE HURRY QUICKLY" i screamed as her blood was dripping down my fingers and into the wet sand i looked be hind me to see if they where coming and they were both running towards me and then stoping looking in horror at my hands " dont ask any questions just go to your bag and find as many bandaids and something that i can stop the bleeding with please hurry" i said and coco ran to the other end of the beach and grabbed her bag running back and dropping everything in that bag and grabbing as many bandaids as she could find and then she had two hair ties " ok listen to me coco and sylvie both of you need to hold her wrists as hard and tightly as you can ok" i said and quickly let got tying the hair tye around her wrist and the rolling it up her up to slow or stop the blood flowing and then did sylvie's side and then i picked her up and sat ran her to coco's car and sat in the back and coco started to drive " where are we going?" she said looking in the rearview mirror " um just go to the hospital ok ill sort it out there you and sylvie go home and tell mum I'm still at the beach with her and wash her sweater as its bloody hide it from mum ok go through coralines window and get a spear change of clothes for her and then drop them off to me ok" i said rushing and looking down at her sceard she was going to die in my arms.
